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20 yr old female, bi, inf
I have had very vivid dreams since I was a child, and I normally remember them. There are times in my life defined by types of dreams; sometimes when I'm anxious I have typical anxiety dreams about waking up late for school or missing a test. Sometimes I have dreams where I am a tree and I feel everything that a tree feels. Sometimes I have a dream where I am in an entirely different universe. Sometimes I have terrifying lucid nightmares.
Lately though (the last year or so) I have been having reoccurring dreams of every day life. I will be asleep, but in my dream, I wake up and get out of bed and get ready for my day. i go about my daily routine, I have normal thoughts, normal things happen (I go to my uni classes, I go to my athletic team practice, I do homework, hang out with friends, etc). At the end of the day, I go to sleep. I usually am still dreaming at this point, and I'll live a few days in a row in this parallel dream world. Lately, I have been restless at night and I wake up in the middle of this dream, and I have no idea if I'm real or not, because I can no longer tell if I'm dreaming. Sometimes I wake up, go back to sleep, and continue this dream life that is exactly the same as my normal one. But sometimes I forget that I go back to sleep, and I wake up in my dream world convinced I'm not dreaming, but I really am.
These dreams are making it really hard to know when I'm asleep and when I'm not. I've had a lot of lucid nightmares but only one lucid dream that I can remember. In my dream, I fell asleep three times in three different dream layers (like a dream inception) within my dream. And I kept waking up in my bed knowing that I was still dreaming and being able to see and do weird things. That was only one dream and it was about 4 months ago. These random, tiring, every day dreams have been happening for over a year now.
When I wake up for real, I feel so exhausted. Sleeping 9 hours just means that I've probably lived 5 days in my parallel dream world, so I never feel very rested at all.
I don't know if this is the right community to post to, I would love an interpretation but would also just love some guidance on what to do about these.
TLDR;
Having dreams over the last year where I live a normal day and don't know if I'm dreaming or not once I wake up
Thatโs about all I remember.
For me, as far as parallels go, I know Iโm supposed to be learning how to break addictions of various forms. I know Iโm supposed to be working through the trauma of loss and grief, as well as living with various disabilities throughout lifetimes. In my most recent past life, my mother abandoned my father and I when I was a young child and I never knew her. Only through photos did I see her. In this lifetime, a similar thing occurred and Iโm being forced to work through the abandonment traumaโฆ my last life ended with an accidental overdose so I am being forced to live a โsimilar but differentโ life.
As far as radically different experiences go, I have been blessed with a father in this lifetime who loves me more than anything, after enduring abuse from my father in my most recent past life. My father would support me if I came out as gay, whereas in my recent past life, he abused me out of his hatred for gay people.
These are just a couple of examples.
Iโm curious to hear about some of yours!
The past few days I've been having dreams that are very similar to this reality. Same family, same work, etc. But when I "wake up" I remember having conversations in these dreams or experiences that didn't happen here.
Also, these conversations and experiences aren't wacky like most dreams. They seem to be realistic. Like for one: my dad had went to the store and bought bananas and told me to throw out the others because they were older and we don't like really ripe bananas. So I toss them.
Or I'm at work and I remember having conversations with people there that didn't happen here.
I've had dreams that have convinced me of other lives elsewhere and I already know we are separate from our bodies while we dream (another dream convinced me of this).
Has anyone else had similar experiences? Do you feel we may be connecting to other realities when we "dream"?
Do you get these salvia themes on your experiences?
I am still relatively new to Salvia, and only had a few light trips, but really really spiritual and dense in mental space. Even though still somehow in this earthly reality.
- Powerful Deja-Vu
I get this feeling in almost all my light trips, sometimes even at threshold, when I take the first hit to "warm up". Everything is really familiar, and the distortions of reality seem even more familiar than the normal parts of common reality. When I get mental images, plots, scenes, somehow blended with normal reality, I get the huge feeling that these scenes are really familiar and related to my "past" as God, as the True Self. Like I've already been incarnated in those mental images eons ago. I'm not talking about a blast off, because I've yet to try a properly medium trip.
- Parallel Scenes with ordinary reality
These are what are usually called plots, scenes and sceneries in psychedelic jargon. I still have somehow ordinary reality in the background, but my human imagination becomes so strong and effective that I can literally imagine anything and start feeling it as somehow real. Once I started following these erotic scenes in my subconscious and i literally started feeling inside the sexual fantasy: smell, touch, emotions... while in the background there still was my room.
- Infinite Fractals/Copypaste
This is an amazing yet shocking effect. It happens when I start to move into medium-trip territory. Some pieces of the visual field become replicated infinitely like a fixed and orderly pattern. You can think about the window-crash error you get on Windows OS, where you drag the window and it becomes replicated along a line. I remember seeing a pattern of my sweater becoming the sample to get replicated hundreds of time along a line in perspective, and becoming some kind of fractal.
This effect is also paired with:
- Infinite Perspective
Once the infinite copypaste of a single sample of reality becomes replicated enough times.... it creates an infinite perspective. This means that the piece of sweater that gets replicated along the line creates some kind of infinite hall moving forever across the horizon, like some kind of infinite stretching-along. It's hard to describe, but think about the piece of sweater becoming a tunnel of ever-growing distance where your gaze can get lost for some 60-120 seconds. Even though time tends to morph too.
This effect is also paired very easily with the d
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I have a few friends. But theyโre all sort of nerds like me. I talk with a few people I think of as normal but donโt learn that much.
I dated a sort of normal girl briefly a while back. Honestly one of the reasons I was bummed it ended was because the insight she gave me was fascinating.
Thereโs just so many questions Iโd ask a โnormalโ person my age
How many friends do you have? Are they from high school, college, work?
Do you go out every weekend? How often do you see your friends?
How many dates do you go on or have you been on?
How many relationships have you had? How many people have you slept with? Who were the people you slept with?
I donโt want to know all these things because Iโm some sort of pervert. I guess itโs because I want something to measure myself against. I know Iโm weird as a mid 20s virgin.
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Iโm actually very creeped out right now โฆ I met this guy on soundcloud last year and always felt very drawn to him/ attracted and would spend time daydreaming about us talking. i finally got the courage to ask him for his number last month โฆ to which was the same time he and his ex of 6 years broke up . we began talking and the similarities are ucanny. we both have the same OCD symptoms, had very similar anorexia experiences, have a lot of moles on our back , which i havent seen on someone else before (and theyre arranged the same) , we both removed our moles with apple cider vinegar on our face in middle school (i havent ever told anyone about that & he brought it up first). we bond over having the same favorite musical . He can only work 5 hours a day and Iโm the same way. there are other more personal similarities.
A super creepy part was that he is living my dream life . He lives on a 10 acre farm with a garden and greenhouse in the middle of nowhere and works as a librarian assistant. I have always told people I wanted to live in the middle of nowhere with a large garden and a lot of land and in a bookstore. I also had a dream about seeing this A frame house and wanting to go inside of it and in one dream, I entered it . I told him about it and he asked me the color of the house because my dream house was the match of his house but the house in my dream was blue , his was brown. Come to find out , his house had been blue prior . Iโm alarmed and wondering if anyone has any interpretation or insight . I started having some paranormal experiences after we began talking also . I have very intense feelings for him , but am trying to minimize them as heโs newly out of a relationship and I want to respect his emotional state.
One reason we can watch Crash Landing multiple times is that with each viewing, new plots and narratives reveal themselves. I had originally thought that Ri Jeong-Hyeok and Seo-Dan were ships passing one another in the night. Later, it seems to me more that they were both headed toward parallel awakenings.
RJH and SD are both heading into a loveless marriage that he doesn't want and she will soon learn she doesn't either. SD does not want to marry RJH so much as she wants to own him -- he is an object, the prize possession in her various social circles. Neither does RJH want to marry SD because of who she is, he is moving forward from engagement to arranged marriage to fulfill a sense of obligation to his father.
Yet even as they both they hurdle toward their unwanted arranged marriage, each begins to resist because they have opened up to another. RJI has been captivated by SJR; and for her part, SD has become intoxicated by Comrade Alberto. RJH is no longer the one-dimension strong silent type, his nurturing, caring side has emerged. And for her part, SD is no longer the button down school girl her family has pegged her as; she is ready to walk on the wild side with a con artist.
SD also remains changed even after her tragic. She is off to Russia wearing a red dress and black leather coat ready to be single, a modern woman emancipated from the most totalitarian gov't on earth. With love, she too is no longer a one-dimensional character, in her case a girl whose only real enjoyment is cutting off friends and cutting down competitors alike. Beneath that narcissistic shell is also someone capable of deep love and still afraid of it.
And finally, by letting their inner selves percolate to the surface, both RJH and SD have awakened their partners as well.
Oh yes, you also have to believe that but for Goo Seung-Joon's death, she'd be his partner in caper after caper -- maybe in Season 2 his death will be shown to have been faked to thrown the Chinese gangsters off his trail.
