Heart Rot Puns

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This was about 4 hours , my chest still hurts and I can’t believe I managed it like a champ.

For reference, i’m an international student and being quite isolated from everyone since covid started.

So I decided to finally quit my anti depressants and one the many bad side effects of the withdrawal from this one is being reckless/indifferent.

I haven’t slept all night today, and I haven’t ate anything in a day except for a redbull and some adderall pills that kept me awake and having no appetite.

By 11 am, I started feeling like blacking out, and going to sleep.

But my dumbass took another adderall pill. don’t ask why it’s literally the influence of the antidepressant that i’m trying to quit for good now.

So I tried to sleep, regretting that I took the pill and began feeling worried I’ve taken too much.

I got anxious and started to overthink it, that maybe I can overdose and my heart stops? then the adderall started to kick in, I literally felt my chest tightening and hurting so much, my heart racing so fast and stopping, my whole body felt numb/paralyzed and breathing was so hard. It literally felt like a heart attack and thought it was over for me.

First I opened my meditation app but it made me more frustrated bc i felt like dying and the guidance made my heart stop even more.

So I did it all the breathing and calming by myself. It took me 2 hours to calm but finally I’m here! I’m grateful

For calming myself, it was the first time guiding myself, there were high and lows, but finally I managed to kick out all the tension in my body.

I did the body scan method, remembered every single thing that made me feel happy/relaxed and accepted death if it happened overall and felt ready.

I really focused on my breathing, and controlling my intrusive thoughts and silenced them. And made sure I stayed present.

In the end I felt calm and felt asleep, I didn’t know if I would woke up or not. I accepted my fate and wow I woke up.

I would never abuse adderall ever again in my life.

That was a good lesson.

On September 30, 2020, GQ UK published an interview with Armie Hammer. The headline: Armie Hammer wants you to pick up the phone and call a friend. Like, now.

The interview was packaged as a rare, candid conversation with a movie star about his mental health struggles. A man who supposedly had it all—looks, breeding, a successful career on the silver-screen—was admitting that appearances can be deceiving. And he wanted the whole world to know he was having a hard time. Why? So that others in a similar position would feel inspired to seek help.

So humble. So brave.

Looking back, it's clear the interview represented a calculated attempt by a well-oiled publicity machine to prop up the 6'5" oil heir as a hero, lest he be exposed as a monster.

By September 2020, many of Armie's alleged DMs were already ricocheting across social media. In fact, they'd gone somewhat viral on July 15, following his divorce announcement.

What Armie's reputation needed, asap, was a good old-fashioned scrubbing—something to show that, whatever his demons, he was addressing them. Armie was doing the work.

And boy, did GQ UK come through for our leading man. It even put him on the cover of the November 2020 issue, all broody and soulful and wanting to open up about his pain, man.

But why did Armie's team go all the way to the United Kingdom in search of the ideal publication through which to launder his image?

This is where things get interesting.

Armie's mental health cover story was written and packaged by GQ UK's Chief Content Officer, Jonathan Heaf. It marked the second occasion both men worked together in less than two years: Armie had graced the March 2019 cover of the magazine—the accompanying profile of the actor was written by Heaf.

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