I am very emotionally and spirituality stressed( https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/mkzt96/just_want_a_new_body_is_something_i_cant_stop/?utm_medium=android_app&utm_source=share )
I want to live on my own. I don't want to live with these people who degrade me everyday. I can't breathe. All I know is I need a spiritual intervention soon or to go the the flathead lake. Although I don't have a car. I don't have money, but I crochet stuff so that's good money. I just... I mean maybe I should just go to the hospital again. Just to be away from everyone. But then I have to go back.
And if I run away, I'll just be found and sent back. And my phone will be searched through and I will have to get yelled at for running away and talking to strangers on the internet.
That's just going to make me hurt more. The more I get chastised and degraded by everyone just makes me want to die. God, I don't fucking know where to turn. Can some just offer ANY advice on what to do at this point? I can't get emancipated because I'm autistic and I wouldn't get my parents' consent.
