Welp, today marks 7 years since my first T shot. 8 surgeries later and 40 years of age around the corner. Younger me could've never imagined where I am now. Thank the universe for modern science and medicine!
My SO gets me a coin every year, though I've never done the program. The most meaningful gifts I've ever received. I am conscious of the past that haunts me and grateful for it being a part of me every day. For anyone that ever questions if stopping is possible or whether it's worth it . . . it is.
I've been looking for quite some time on google but can't find them anywhere... Can anybody please tell me where can I read them.
What do you think of the "expanded universe" of Highschool DxD?What did you like and what didn't you like?
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Substance: Truffles (Shamanica)
Dosage: 10 grams
Date: 31/12/20
Time of ingestion: 5PM
This was probably the very most intense/profound experience iโve ever had on truffles. And my story does inferior justice to some of the highlights. I donโt take truffles often because the taste is disgusting and dosages are administered in high quantities so i prefer shrooms.
I was sitting in my buddyโs living room after a rather quick and harsh come-up in the shower. I sat in his chair for about 3 hours. In this time i had an experience i can only recall in bits and pieces. Iโm sure my ego died at some point as i felt dead. But having experienced this feeling of cold, heartless death a couple of times i could better deal with it. But still rather unpleasant.
This is where i start to really think deep about my memory and it felt like i was suffering from dementia. I couldnโt really put my finger on short term memories and what happened a few seconds before. And i was too occupied with that to bother with long term memories. Every so often the visuals build up to this extremely intense level of fractals. Than his room changed into another version of the room. Different heights, different paintings on the wall, different composition of the room. And i could tell it wasnโt the way it was before. And โpoofโ i snapped into that reality and the visuals got back to how the visuals were supposed to be at the dosage i took. And i could think clearly again and just talk normally like absolutely nothing was going on. while i was mentally impaired seconds ago not able to form a sentence of more than 3 words.
And i tried to think back at what happened during the โpoofโ but i donโt know. It felt like a certain trigger by movement. Like i blinked in a certain way or moved my head to the left. But not physically but more like i mentally moved around my spirit or something... very difficult to explain. But this kept happening over and over and i just couldnโt place my finger on it.
After 3 hours of sitting on the chair with deep thoughts i had to stand up. That was an excruciating effort as my entire body cramped up. Me standing up felt exactly like i was a bird coming out of an egg and moving itโs limbs for the first time. I looked at my hands and they also felt like claws of a bird. I felt taller than i ever perceived myself to be and all in all i felt truly alien to my body.
We quickly had to hurry because a friend was going to pick us up with her car. This is when i alrea
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3 years ago today, I jumped in the car with my husband and drove to my childhood home to read a letter to my parents. This letter gave a high level overview of all the "stuff" that was bottled up inside of me, and had been spilling out ever since I got married and moved out (away from their influence) a few months prior.
I hoped that the letter would kickstart a difficult conversation, which would lead to a long journey of healing and a change in my relationship with my parents. The comments on my profile will tell you in varying detail what really happened, but basically my exfather threw us out of the house and tried to ram our car.
It sent me into a spiral which led me to discovering narcs and after much research and discussion with my husband, I scorched the earth with a burn letter (that's before I found this sub and its related subs and didn't realise one shouldn't send those) and went NC three weeks later with my FOO.
So I recognise today as my rebirthday. The day I stood up for myself against a lifetime of control and oppression from my outwardly "loving" father. The day I saw my mother for the abused, enabling woman she is. The day I realised my sisters were even more emotionally stunted than me, and were united in their belief that our father was the perfect dad, God's chosen man to lead our family to heaven.
This evening I plan on doing my daily workout, enjoying a healthy supper with a glass of expensive wine with my husband, playing video games with him until bedtime, and falling asleep with at least 2 cats curled up on me.
May you all have a great day, and for those of you struggling with NC, just remember that you only have one life to live, and you made that decision so that you could make the most of it.
Howdy, everyone!
The day has finally come and we have only a few hours left. I'll be avoiding this place for awhile after release because I have no self control for spoiler posts. I just wanted to express how much I enjoy this community and everyone that has helped it thrive.
I also really wanted to make that pun in the title.
May the Troll Engine be merciful to you all.
Just surpassed a year since my last chemo treatment. (Hodgkin's) Feels great to be back in college. I think my memory is definitely improving, and honestly I thought it wouldnโt. At least it felt that way. On average, how long does it take to fully recover from chemo-brain? I feel better, but I still donโt think Iโm at 100%.
Thank you for reading. Good luck to those who are still fighting.
Hey looks, there's some cake! What a coinci-- oh wait, no. I stumbled out of the desert, took a big shit, and made a reddit account.
Video coming later. Two Years of Being Chris or somesuch. First I'll be visiting the Del Taco that I was dropped off at by the people who picked me up off the side of the highway. (Prison security guards on their way to work, they thought I was a corpse.)
In other words, it's a good day for a BORR-EEET-TOOOOOEEE!!!
A while ago I saw a card offer on here that really meant a lot to me. I messaged the OP and we chatted a bit.
OP is a really amazing person.
After finding out I celebrate a "rebirthday", I was sent a rebirthday card. (Last year I finally put my foot down to start kicking the really toxic people out of my life. It was the day I decided that I was starting over mostly from scratch. There are a few other things and it gets really complicated, so I'll leave it at that.)
The card arrived the day before my rebirthday, which was December 21st, my favorite day of the year.
It was wonderful and empowering and supportive and validating and all sorts of things I really needed that day.
Thank you so much, ChaChaGalore! You're a really amazing person and please don't ever step being you!
^^I ^^have ^^a ^^lot ^^more ^^thank ^^yous ^^I ^^need ^^to ^^post, ^^but ^^I'm ^^planning ^^on ^^waiting ^^until ^^after ^^the ^^holidays ^^for ^^those ^^for ^^reasons.
So I just turned 22 a couple days ago and I am on a mission to give up fapping for good. I'm currently on a 3 week streak and I really want to be able to say that I quit fapping completely when I was 21. I know times will get tough, but I'm hoping this will make me stay on this path and avoid a relapse. I hope to make 22 the best and most productive year of my life. Thanks to all the people on this sub who have encouraged me and helped me on my journey so far
...and it just feels so weird, because the day still sticks out, but the meaning is now irrelevant.
Did anyone else here used to celebrate their Christian anniversary? Mine was September 20, and I used to commemorate it with a sappy Facebook post and would go out and get myself dessert somewhere.
Yesterday was my first one where I didn't do any of those things. (Well, I did eat dessert, but that was just because I had a sweet tooth last night.) I did spend a lot of time reflecting on how much I have changed since last year, though. I don't really regret the memories I made and the friendships I had, but I regret how the bad theology kicked my mental health issues into a downward spiral for 12 years. I'm happier now that I can think clearly and God is just a question mark in my mind. A year ago it would have been inconceivable to me that I would be happier now and that as I finally got healed from mental illness it would be because of science and not because God answered my prayers.
How did you feel the first time your Christian anniversary came and passed as an exchristian?
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Thank all of you, brothers and sisters, chosen and unkindled! I've had a love for the land of lords, the dungeons, and the sun since 2011 when the xbox 360 had a free downloadable game. This came was titled "Dark Souls". I've gone through tough times, love, loss. But Dark Souls , the community, and the sun has helped me in my life. Thank you all! And remember...
Praise the Sun!
34 mtf. I just picked up my prescriptions for spiro (100mg/day) and estradiol (1mg/day). I popped those suckers in my mouth as soon as I found a drink I g fountain. In case I needed more evidence that this is what i wanted...
I know the doses are low, but my T tested at 300 and me E at 27 so my levels werenโt too bad already and Iโm ok with starting slow.
Any recommendations on how I should be taking care of myself right now? Should I be taking the E sublingually? At these doses, is it possible I wonโt feel/see any effects? Or should I strap myself in for a wild ride?
Love you all. You have been my support group the last six months. Iโm so happy youโre here, and Iโm here!
