I was homeschooled from the 3rd grade till I “graduated” and was also raised as a Jehovah’s Witness. I was an outcast among outcasts.
Fast forward to today. I have a (shitty) work from home call center job and my lunch break takes place during the exact same time that 2 different busses drop the kids off at home, one for middle, the other for high. It always makes me feel sad when I see kids coming home. They’re always smiling and joking amongst each other. And my parent stole that opportunity from me. Once I hit high school age and I requested to go to public school my mom said I’d be bullied and that I was too far behind. Maybe she was right about everything, but I at least wish that I would’ve had an opportunity to fail. I’m getting old and still can’t let go of what if.
I wish that I could let thee feeling go but I can’t. I just always feel like I’m behind people my own age and the gap is getting larger.
I didn’t attempt to go to college till I was 21 (when other my age were graduating), and I dropped out (because I’m an idiot). And I’m quickly approaching my mid 30s and most people my age have kids in middle and high school. But I’ve only had 2.5 relationships in my life and they all lasted less than 6 months.
There’s no fixing me, and there’s no catching up with people my own age. There’s. I point to this point or even my life, I just needed to vent because I’m a loser. I want to let go of the anger about my childhood, but I can’t let go. My childhood was so long ago, I was so lonely and alone as a child and it was my parents fault. They tried to act like they were doing me a favor back then but they hardly taught me anything. I never wrote a single essay, studied geometry, biology, chemistry, or a foreign language when I was a kid. I’ve studied some of things things as an adult, but I was supposed to be exposed to them as a kid, not try to learn their stuff as people my own age are doing great things in their careers, getting married, and having their own kids study the stuff that I’m lacking.
I fucking hate me.
Edit: thanks for the kind words everyone. I do hate that others my age are in the same situation as me, but it is comforting to know that I’m not the only person with these issues.
Weyoun, The Female Founder, and Legate Broka are in the Cardassia Prime command centre when they see reports that the Cardassian fleet started attacking the Dominion and Breen ships.
The Founder, incensed, callously orders Broka taken away and presumably executed. The Founder then orders the entire Cardassian population eliminated.
https://youtu.be/GIBpcnlXqKQ?t=244
I feel there's a slight look of hesitation on Weyoun's face. A slight change of expression of the eyes, and a quick lingering, incredulous, gaze on [the back of] the Founder as he leaves to perform his task. A look of conscience overruled by his ingrained reverence and fealty to the Founder.
Whatever your interpretation, it's still masterful work by the great Combs.
edit Appreciate the responses with their own takes and insights. Another example how a great actor can take a great story and script and produce this kind of analysis 22 years later. Modern TV needs to remember there can be ambiguity and nuance.
You know that dull twinge I’m talking about. The one where you’ve been in remission for months but you feel that reminder that says “hey just reminding you that you have ulcerative colitis and there is some inflammation going on in your colon!” I’ve been in remission for around 6 months. Today I started feeling that twinge. Is there something I can do to help prevent in from being a full on flare?
Im currently on Entyvio every 8 weeks. I had been on mesalamine 4 pills orally but am no longer on that as of two months. I do have some mesalamine enemas kicking around that I used to use when in the height of my flare.
A month since passing my 3mm stone that was causing my severe pain. I was told I have more kidney stones yet not 'causing issues' at the time. Couple of times this week I've had a severe twinge in what I think is my kidneys.
Do you get twinges in your kidneys sometimes?
Never experienced this pre stone. So odd.
So, I’ve been on a weight loss program — Optavia/Medifast — since February 2021, and I’ve had some considerable success with it, currently down around 126 pounds, going for another 40 or so. As you might expect, I’m really happy with where I’ve gotten to and I’m not looking to change my plan or process, but I’ve experienced something curious and wanted your input about what’s going on, just so I can know what to call it.
Occasionally, I’ll experience what I guess a doctor would qualify as neuropathy in parts of my body that had been particularly jiggly in the before-times. It’s happened on the bat-wings under my arms, in the former folds near my shoulder blades, and now with the main event, the spare tire around the midsection. It doesn’t hurt at all mostly, but once in a while when I move in a particular way to jostle the tissue, a nerve will misfire or short-circuit or something and it’ll present as a simultaneous sharp pain and numbness in a specific, unmoving spot. The sensation only lasts for a few seconds, but I can make it reappear by fiddling with that spot again. This will happen in a location for a couple weeks and then go away.
My theory is that these bodies had become organized over time when I was bigger, in a certain way, with skin and blood vessels and fat and nerves, and my aggressive re-arranging of those is causing components to bunch together until some ‘wires’ get crossed.
This seems to be a process my body is handling on its own just fine, which suggests to me others have had the same experience, but I’d never heard of it before. Is my theory on what’s happening correct? Is there anything I should be cautious or concerned about?
I've been listening to the audio books (after numerous failed attempts to read them due to dyslexia) and something about the way Stephen pronounces Accio really gets me haha. Surely I can't be the only one. 😂
6 weeks tomorrow and I am currently waiting to find out if this pregnancy is ectopic or not. Went in at 5 weeks and scan showed “no sign of pregnancy”. I’ve been having some little twinges I’ll call them (maybe even like tiny pinches) in my lower abdomen/pelvic area. Is this normal or a symptom of ectopic?
1-2 days before my period I get this feeling in my vagina, kind of twinges or mild cramp. Does anyone else get it? Not sure what it is, maybe my body getting ready
This may be a dumb question and I may be the only one. I just have moments when I feel like I'm going manic and it sticks around for like an hour then I'm back to anxiety or depression. Idk what it is. Anybody else experience this?
Does anyone get random twinges in their urethra? Like spasms maybe? They feel like little zaps but not painful. Or like per is gonna come out.
So yesterday I was fast walking through the halls at school when I got a twinge of sharp pain in my chest, the pain wasn’t debilitating but it wasn’t an ache, enough for me to go “uh”. It happened twice while I was fast walking but it hasn’t happened since. I’m on eliquis because of a PE back in 2020. But I can’t help but worry anyways that it’s a clot or cancer?? I’ve been a bit of a hypochondriac since my PE. Has anyone experienced this?
For context I also take Pepcid, Nexium, and Zoloft also and I had an iron transfusion recently.
It would have been nice to see the stars in the sky with my own eyes before they had all blinked out.
I’ve been little pain twinges all over. I have GERD, gastritis and an ulcer. Any one else?
I'm currently 7 weeks pregnant and have been experiencing painful twinges that come and go. It feels more like a pulling pain? Not sure how else to describe it. I'm taking progesterone shots because I had to do IVF to get pregnant. Is what I'm experiencing normal? I've heard of round ligament pain but also that it usually doesn't happen until the second trimester.
So I’m currently in a part time grad program that’s quite large (750 ppl), and the men I’m meeting are all 30-40s. I’ve noticed that although there are plenty of single men, the ones I’m clearly attracted to are ALL TAKEN. It has really gotten me down actually.
I now really hate the feeling of grabbing coffee with someone, finding them cute/funny/hot, then trying to hide my disappointment when they eventually bring up their girlfriends. I feel so lame but those are my feelings. I was excited about starting the program because I also anticipated good dating opps.
And then I look at the single ones and they’re either unattractive (to me) or have pretty dysfunctional personalities that I could never date. The ones that are super partner-material are…you guessed it taken.
I’ve never subscribed to the idea that the dating pool is any worse than in our 20s. I always told myself that good people are always available at any age. But this program has really jaded me and honestly bummed me out a lot. That plus how shitty OLD has been continuously. Anyone else been through something similar and can relate?
I’m a gay 22 year old guy. Pretty new to being sexually active, like within the last 5 months. I almost always use a condom, 100% when I bottom but occasionally if I trust someone I’ll top them without a condom. I never let anyone cum in my mouth and nowhere near my ass. I have no internal contact with semen whatsoever.
A few months ago I started feeling a tinge of pain after peeing, a red irritated pee hole, and like a cloudy discharge coming out of my dick. Not profusely, but like if I squeezed it it would come out and when i woke up in the morning there was usually some there. These symptoms stayed for about 2 weeks before I was concerned enough to get tested. Maybe i should’ve gone earlier but I am very inexperienced and was going through it all on my own and couldn’t ask anyone for help. I went to planned parenthood and got tested for chlamydia and gonorrhea. Due to my symptoms they gave me the anti chlamydia medicine during the appointment. And bc I am #1. In the closet #2. Afraid of letting my parents know i’m sexually active #3. Dumb as fuck and don’t know how insurance works
I paid $500 for the std test and it came back negative for both chlamydia and gonorrhea. Eventually the symptoms went away and I don’t know if it was the medicine or not that caused that. I’ve chalked up the encounter to being a UTI from not peeing after sex.
Flash forward 4 months to yesterday and I feel a slight tinge of pain after I piss. Wake up to a irritated pee hole with slight discharge marks on the inside of my underwear. And history seems to be repeating itself. I haven’t had sex in 2 weeks. The last guy i banged, I wasn’t wearing a condom, but he was on prep and he didn’t even finish. Romantic i know. But now i’m afraid that i may have to go get std tested again and the same situation will happen and i’ll be paying $500 to get told i don’t have chlamydia.
Even if the guy did have an std, which I don’t believe he did, what are the odds i would get it from those given conditions? What’s my best course of action? Please help. I am young and dumb and have no available support system.
Thanks
Hi all, So, two weeks ago I got the Paragard inserted for emergency contraception. I had dealt with the Mirena in the past, but a year after insertion, it caused cystic acne and cramps that I couldn’t deal with and I got it removed. I later went on the Aviane pill, which gave me horrible acne, so I stopped that too. I figured a non-hormonal option would be best for me, so I decided to go with the copper IUD (even though I knew heavy periods and cramping may be in my future).
The day of insertion wasn’t too terrible. I got it inserted at Planned Parenthood (and had a great experience with the staff there) and experienced cramping that lasted for about a day, with spotting that went on for 5 days. The insertion itself was a little painful, and my doctor even noted that she had a tough time opening the “second curtain” of my cervix, but she was able to fully insert it and cut my strings.
Today, I’m due for my period according to my Flo app, and sure enough, I’m starting to spot (so I hope that EC was a success lol). However, I’ve been experiencing random twinges of abdominal pain whenever I turn abruptly or do any kind of deep stretching of my abdominal area (sometimes localized to my right side). This pain doesn’t last anymore than a couple of minutes, but it’s still a little concerning. I’m trying to chalk it up to weird period cramps, but I’m unsure. Has anyone elese experienced this?
I’m on my second day of this sensor. It’s on the right side of my stomach in a spot I haven’t used yet. When I inserted it, it was actually the first sensor that I didn’t feel AT ALL. When inserted (usually it hurts for a few seconds) and it has been very accurate.
The only weird this is it’s been giving me little twinges of pain, if I’m leaning over for awhile it will start to hurt, or if I’m stretching out it will hurt on and off. It didn’t bleed at all either, I assume this is okay?
I am 4dp5dt. A couple days ago, I started feeling this pinching sensation in my pelvic area, left center-ish that gets stronger each day.
I’ve read through so many previous posts about symptoms during the TWW (don’t we all, even if we know they’re terrible for our mental health lol) and I saw a lot of women mentioning twinges and cramps around the uterine area.
I’m just curious, what did your twinges feel like? And where were they?
6 weeks tomorrow and I am currently waiting to find out if this pregnancy is ectopic or not. Went in at 5 weeks and scan showed “no sign of pregnancy”. I’ve been having some little twinges I’ll call them (maybe even like tiny pinches) in my lower abdomen/pelvic area. Is this normal or a symptom of ectopic?
