βSew it goesβ
I posted here for the first time six months ago. I wanted to claw the fat off my body. I wanted to lose weight FAST. I hated myself so much. I can see the self-loathing emanating from those words.
Unsurprisingly, since then, I have gained an additional seven pounds, gone up a size in clothing, and kept on eating. Knowing what I'm doing to myself, and feeling helpless to change it. I've been lonely, bored, and sad, binge-eating my way through a hundred and fifty insomniac nights.
Today, I split my pyjamas bending over in the kitchen.
I was alone. But for some reason, I was so embarrassed, I sat right down on the kitchen floor and cried.
I cried for every time someone has yelled slurs at me out of the car window. I cried for every time I held back tears in the changing room. I cried for the opportunities I've allowed to pass me by, and the dates I never went on, and the photos I'm not in because I hated my body too much. I cried for my non-existent sex life, for the shapeless clothes I wear, for the fear I feel when I go to the gym.
As I calmed down and dried my eyes, my first instinct was to open the snack cupboard, and soothe my hurt feelings. But I realised I don't want to live like this any more.
I don't want to lose weight out of self-loathing. I want to lose it out of self-love. I want to lose it, because I deserve better than binge-eating because I am lonely and sad. I want to lose it, because I deserve better than getting out of breath when I go up two flights of stairs. I want to lose it, because this extra weight represents ill-health and self-loathing. I want to lose it for me, because I deserve it.
It starts here.
especially if you have it in dark olive. I love dark olive and am considering buying these over the ready to rule which I don't ~love~
also would like reviews if you are 5'3"-ish cuz they look Long
Another big closet clean out drop. US buyers only and payment via PayPal invoice only. All prices INCLUDE SHIPPING COST. Items are shipped via USPS Priority Mail with tracking. I've included measurements in the descriptions, please read carefully before asking questions. Please ask questions before buying. Everything is priced to move. All items that have been worn are or have been dry-cleaned before sending. Thanks for looking.
[SOLD] Dior Air Jordan 1 Coco Gold Version or whatever the top end one is called :D - Size 9.5 - Price $275
TIMESTAMP AND TAGGED PICS: https://imgur.com/a/JWnaxZZ
I don't follow batches or versions so not sure where this falls but I purchased this shortly after release (~2-3 weeks). It's the top end version from Coco with the Dior box and all the fixings. Never worn. Bought this for the purpose of display on shelf. It's been sitting in a see-through sneaker case. Still has new shoe smell. Icy sole has slight oxidation which is good since sneakers have been released for awhile. Includes Dior special box, all dust bags, metal jordan and air dior tags, extra Dior cap laces, and Dior print insoles.
[SOLD] Dior Homme x Hajime Sorayama souvenir jacket - Size 46 - Price $160
TIMESTAMP AND TAGGED PICS: https://imgur.com/a/aNNm7Qu
Purchased from Peltiano. I paid a lot for this, I know there was a cheaper version floating around from other sellers. This one is 100% silk outer and inner lining. Never worn, I took it to my local tux/suit shop to get it steamed out as it came very wrinkled. Pains me to let this go but I live in an area where it rains way too often and never got around to wearing it. I know a lot of people missed out on this one so hopefully finds a good home. Chest is 48" or 24" across pit to pit. 24.25" length. Sleeve is 30" from collar, no shoulder point on this design. Waist is 34" at the very bottom. It's a cropped design.
[SOLD] Chanel 2021 Logo Pattern Bucket Hat - Size M - Price $30
TIMESTAMP AND TAGGED PICS: https://imgur.com/a/40Z0bwa
Purchased from Peltiano. Never worn. Says Size M but it's too small for my head. Circumference runs ~22" but has an elastic band.
[SOLD] Chanel 2021 Logo Pattern Windbreaker - Size 40 - Price $60
TIMESTAMP AND TAGGED PICS: https://imgur.com/a/g1uXS2U
Purchased
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