Anytime I try to emerge from my free-spirited potato sack and wear normal human clothes, I spontaneously turn into a fridge. What gives? I have a waist so idk why this is happening to me 😢
🚨🚨DISCLAIMER!!!! 🚨🚨 I think the fridge body type is actually really pretty, no hate to the fridges out there, but how common is it to be a fridge? And I’m not a fridge right? 😥
Just off the top of my head (with zero effort), I can think of a dozen displays of contempt (*dozens* if we include Biden during the primary).
I'm amazing that the collective response by all Americans is a collective sigh and lethargic walrus-like roll over. Just...wow.
I can't wait to see what they do next. Maybe Biden can start visiting terminally ill people in the hospital and fall asleep while they try to talk to him about medical costs (or he could shout them down by yelling about his son).
I know it's a very small thing and only a moment or two but when he was desperately trying to show the police how well he knew his kids to try and make himself look like too involved a father to have killed them he somehow couldn't keep the contempt out of his voice when he was imitating Bella and it actually sounded kind of nasty the way he was imitating her saying "are you OK. Are you OK?" Do you know what I mean? I'm talking about in the police interrogation.
He said "Bella is the calm, nurturing one who's always saying "you OK, You OK," but when he imitates her, he sounds kind of mocking and nasty. And I couldn't understand why he'd be angry or snotty about her saying "you OK?, you OK?"
But then just the other day I heard some YouTuber mentioning about psychopaths having huge contempt for people with emotional reactions and for empaths. So I thought maybe that's why I detected that real contempt in his voice about Bella asking everyone if they are OK.
But it kind of shows anxiety too. Maybe Bella is anxious about her dad being OK and whether he might be mad at her or mad at her mom, perhaps because of past behavior? So she asks him if he's OK when he's quiet or cold, and he finds it annoying, and/or stupid. Perhaps?
His killing CeCe before Bella when Bella might have had slightly more understanding seems particularly cruel and backwards. You would it expect to be the other way around if he had an inclination to spare anyone any pain at all. But he didn't.
And then he says Bella asked him "Is what happened to CeCe going to happen to me." And he says "I hope I wasn't a horrible person who said 'yes'." Which........I'm guessing he did say "yes". How can he not know?
*edit to title- parent(s) or caregiver(s). Just generally
One of my biggest fears is being like my father (and my mother, but in a less immediate way). At my best, I actually am kind of an excitable person, so a good amount of my enthusiasm is genuine, but I also notice that I have a huge fear of being percieved as sullen, angry, or upset. I was also punished for expressing negative emotions as a child, so I'm sure that's a big part of it.
Or will this still be highly dependent on the region? Like State A will always be segregated compared to State B.
How does one be intimate
Reveal the most vulnerable parts of oneself
Expose one’s weaknesses, blemishes, and cellulite
To the one they fear most?
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How does one be kind and soft
Reveal compassion and grace
Exchange ideas like colorful messenger birds
To the liar they hold in contempt?
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Marble man.
Rusted heart.
Self-interest consumes you with wildfire
Pride fills your ears with worms
Is there a way to kindle embers of compassion
Buried by entitlement?
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When do prisoners break free
And meek lovers dare to dream
And resigned angels take flight?
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I find solace in the loneliness
Rest in my heart’s prison
Seek peace in the chaos
And calm in these choppy waters
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Like the wind, you are unpredictable
I am a feather tossed around by your stormy gales
Fluttering in your gusts
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But my Lord will snatch me from your storm
He is stronger than hot air
And will be my mother hen
The Son save another
The Son save you, contemptuous lover
Today I am six months sober! I still can't believe it, what a trial.
Quitting alcohol was like breaking up with a long time lover.
The first few months I was so thirsty! I just told myself, well I guess I'm just going to be thirsty ebolaprep until it goes away. I thought about it every minute of every day.
It had been such a huge part of my life, and now it was gone. Thought about sneaking a drink, no one will know... except me, I would know. I went to 90 AA meetings in 90 days, every day I went.
Then, I wasn't thirsty all the time, I only thought about it at the end of the day, my normal drinking times. It was whispering in the back of my head, sweet nothings, the good times, the longing for a time now passed. But it was easier to push it out of my head or find something to do to distract me. Mostly go to a meeting when that happened.
Eventually, now, I only crave it when I'm doing a project or it's a sunny day and I'm on the porch. But I think back at what that bitch took from me, the grieving I went through to break the cycle that had held me for two decades, taken my youth, my time and my money. I take a sip of ice tea, smile, and go about my day, always on guard that it will sneak up behind me again, but now with some tools to defend myself from future attacks.
I owe my sobriety to God and to the people in those rooms.
Thanks for reading! Thank you to this sub for being such a huge support group!
IWNDWYT!!!!!
June clearly is losing patience with having to 'coddle' Luke and worry about his feelings. I've got a death grip on the tattered pieces of my psyche, and I've gotta comfort you? People I care about have been murdered because of me, and I'm here standing, but you're crying because I won't TALK to you?!?
It would be a kindness to spare Luke the truth about Hannah, but I believe it's her test. She needs him to be as enraged as she is. If he isn't.... Her resentment of him will deepen till she will become cruel and force a divorce. The man is a saint, a literal saint, and she knows this. But try comparing yourself to a saint when you hate yourself so deeply. As long as his hands stay clean, hers look more and more filthy.
It's not fair to Luke to compare him to Nick, but June has the love of a man she doesn't have to coddle or lie to, who knows what evils have happened to her and what evils she's done. She doesn't have to explain them, or ask for forgiveness or understanding, because Nick knows and Luke never will, not really. The only language June feels comfortable sharing with Luke now is sex, and you see how that's gone. Even if she doesn't build a life with Nick, she can't move forward with Luke. He will hold her back from her calling of destroying Gilead and she will hate him for it.
