Mine personally always come when I'm having trouble sleeping. Orgasm seems like an easy out for sleep troubles.
Oof now his ass is under fire 🔥google his name and it’s all in the news 😵😵😵😵
Yesterday Celsius made a slipup that had many people, myself included, feel their heartbeat in their throat. Luckily no funds were lost, but this sure gave me a good enough scare!
I made it 38 days clean, then had a tough day and slugged back a few IPAs during a meal out with a friend I hadn't seen since early COVID. This, of course, turned into a craving for a cigarette, and, of course I need some more beers to go along with it. Yeah, you know the rest. I felt like ass the next day, not so much a hangover but the depression / anxiety that one feels when they know they "did it again" along with any fallout from embarrassing texts, etc. I think we all know *that* feeling. Anyways, I have made it 12 days since then so I guess 1 bad day in 50 is a good start. Not a full 50 streak like I had planned. I fell shy of my original plan to beat my record of 60 something days sober, I think it 62 or something. I have my first physical since the Obama administration scheduled this Thursday and I had planned on hitting day #53 or #54 or whenever when I showed up. I am pretty sure I will report back in good healthy since I'm only 41 and was very healthy when I had blood drawn a couple years ago for a stomach issue that had been bothering me. My one saving grace of my drinking career has been I exclusively drink beer (hate hard shit) and generally do it only a week. Healthy? No, but it does give my body some days off. Certainly not something I'd bank my long term health on but it's gotta be better than doing it every day like others in my life have.
I am starting to wonder though if my anti-depressants stopped working, perhaps a while back. I don't have a lot of energy and most days feel kind of grey. You see, I take antidepressants AND something for my bipolar 2. I don't know if I was wrongly diagnosed or maybe the drinking made the pills less effective or something. I just have trouble mustering energy to do stuff like hit the gym. I dunno if it's being chronically bored, not having a lot of friends, being perpetually single so having no sex life. COVID. A combination of all of the above. Anhedonia from the quitting AND all these other things working against me. I guess I just want brighter days and I'm guessing these contributing factors lead me back to the beer. It uplifts me. I feel like talking to people and making plans. I'm "happy" for a period of time. Can anyone relate? I know I'm rambling but I enjoy posting here.
This just makes me incredibly embarrassed, especially in a work setting. I understand I should probably correct ppl because it just builds up and makes me feel pathetic
Hi all, I went out for a beer and to chat to my mate on the phone and I ordered a Heineken Zero, and the barmaid brought out a regular Heineken. I only noticed when the effects started kicking in and it felt absolutely rotten, I remembered immediately why I stopped drinking.
I know this was a mistake in her part and I wasn't angry, but I feel a bit upset, like I've lost my streak. Has this happened to anyone else?
wish me luck
I definitely don't just want to listen to it all again anyway
Just curious. That's all. After my first month without a drink in over 10 years, I've had a couple a night every now and then. Even though I've drank a few nights since then, I still feel good for taking the month off. It's changed a lot for me. I do feel better about myself and will be stopping again. I was a 3 to 4 a night drinker. The last couple of weeks I've been more like 1 or 2 on the nights I did drink, but I felt better not drinking at all. The buzz after a couple of drinks doesn't feel like it used to.
Please tell me the truth as honest as possible because i feel like my brain is trying to rationalise ways for me to do it and please reply fast
I've been on trying to stay sober for about 2 months now but every 2 weeks or so I end up having 1 or 2 drinks. I'm proud of myself that in these slipups I havent gone crazy and gotten completely blackout drunk, but it still feels like I'm failing at something I really want for myself.
I'm not sure if the drinks are me convincing myself that I can moderate (which may be true but I dont want to try or risk that). I just dont understand how to build myself up more to say no on those occasions. Especially now that I know once in a while, I can have a drink or 2 without going crazy.
(Reminded by u/MajoraSkullChild meme)
The bible tries to tell us that humans originated with Adam and Eve. They were ejected from Eden and had two boys, who competed against each other until Cain killed his brother Abel.
The bible says Yahweh "put a mark" on Cain so that people wouldn't kill him. He then wandered away from home and married a woman from the people of Nod.
Even as a child I asked, "Wait, where did the people of Nod come from?"
No one ever answered me, just saying, "It was different of Eve's kids."
Uhhhhh.... hmmm. That's not at all how the passages leading up to that story read. Adam and Eve had Cain and Abel early on. 130 years later, they had Seth. Following Seth, they had "other sons and daughters".
But Cain married well before that, in fact, before Seth was even born.
I loved watching Christians try to wriggle their way around that one. "It was others of their kids!" But the babble says otherwise. Who am I supposed to believe, you or the babble?
Be me. Rediscover my love for valve games (portal, half-life etc.). Start playing Team Fortress 2 again. Things are going ok.... Until today. Now, on ctf double cross. The round has been going on for literally centuries. Both Red and Blu are neck and neck 2-2 captures. Both sides need one more capture to win. Playing as engie defending intel because other engie swapped class. Enemy team begins push with a medic, soldier (who was dominating me so I was looking forward to kicking their ass) and pyro. Soldier starts blasting my sentry. Sentry takes damage. Scroll down to select Wrangler to tank damage and attack soldier. .... breathes in But I forgot to left click beforehand and I'm facing the sentry. .......... Picks up the sentry while under heavy fire Enemy yoinks intel and wins. .................
Thank you very much Junko, it's been an amazing year....
Sunday was supposed to be my day 7. I had a long stressful day with my family and gave into my alcohol monster around dinner time. I told myself that hey, 'I have a headache and should to "treat" myself, plus I have been having a hard time sleeping so this will somehow make everything better'...
What ended up happening was that I drank 4 beers over the course of which my headache got worse, I stayed up later then I should have and did not sleep very well. I am not proud that I broke down but I am proud that I did not drink everything in the house and went to bed after acknowledging that the path I was on was not helping me in any way. I did not wake up with a hangover or massive regret but I did wake up with a clear sense of the way that alcohol has hijacked my brain and emotions to serve a false idea that it is "helping" me.
Today is my day 2 yet again but I am not going to dwell on that "again" word because I know all to well that Sunday could have put me back into a month long tailspin and I am not going to let that happen this time.
IWNDWYT and thank you all for being here too.
