I am in fucking TEARS right now because I hate bedside. I hate it so much. I’m a new grad and I started my job last October, and I just feel so inadequate and that my patients aren’t getting the care they deserve because of how broken the hospital system is. I don’t want to stick out this residency program anymore. I don’t want to stay for another 2 years.
I was offered a job in Home Health today, and I honestly was very excited about it. I wanted to call my aunt because she’s the nurse whiz in the family who went from LVN to CNO of a hospital. She then told me that it would be stupid to throw away being in one of the best residency programs (which I honestly hate), and that I NEED to stay at bedside for 2 years, or I never will advance my career because other people’s resumes will outshine mine.
I know she’s probably right, but I can’t fucking fathom spending another year, let alone two years, doing this shit anymore. My mental state is to the ground and I just feel like even more of a disappointment. Any advice would be great.
EDIT: I went into nursing for myself and to help people, not watch people suffer in the hospital with inadequate care and insufficient, neglectful administration/leadership. I simply went to my aunt for advice and I’m really conflicted atm.
Be me. Traveler. ER
26/30 beds are holds for 20+ hours.
30 in waiting room all night.
CNO comes skipping through 7am with "snacks".
Cafeteria items close to expiration.
Wants us to thank her. Kiss her feet.
She has no mask.
Ask her, "Where's your mask? You know we have Covid patients down here".
With the deadest-of-dead look in my eyes. She's silent.
I hold her stare. She breaks first.
Walks out without saying a word.
Get crowdsurfed to my car by my coworkers.
Hero? Legend? No. Traveler who doesn't give a shit.
I used to work on the floor for 3 years but recently transferred to pre op/PACU because I couldn’t stand coming to work anymore. I just heard today the CNO will be sending us to work the floor again on days that they are short, for no extra pay. I understand they are short but this bothers me because it is affecting the time I get in orientation for my new position. I should at least be getting paid some extra. Any thoughts on this BS?
I have a question regarding a potential fusion cycle, and would like those more knowledgable than me to shoot it down. The plan calls for taking a beam of nitrogen ions, combining it with a source of muons, and directing it at a solid target of protium. The proposal is similar to inertial confinement fusion, but with the addition of a catalyst. Essentially the idea goes like this- the major issue with muon catalysed fusion is the alpha sticking fraction; the alpha particle is a heavier nucleus with a greater charge than the hydrogen isotopes, and as such will tend to bind muons, making them unavailable for further reactions. Thus, we bind the muons to a much heavier nucleus, say nitrogen, ionised right down to the point where there are no electrons left. When the single muonic nitrogen nuclei impact a protium target, they will catalyse fusion reactions via the CNO cycle that predominates in larger stars. Each catalyst nucleon can bind 4 protons before spitting out a high energy alpha particle and being regenerated. The alpha sticking fraction is now avoided- the catalyst nucleon will have a much higher affinity for the muon than the smaller alpha particle, hence the alpha sticking fragment will be negligible, and is likely to remain bound for the entirety of its lifetime. According to an old scientific paper I read, muon catalysed fusion is achingly close to net energy production in DT mixtures, each muon needs to catalyse around 300 fusions for net energy gain but the alpha sticking fraction is about 1 in 150. By contrast, a muon in its lifetime can catalyse over 900 fusions.
Im not qualified in this area, but i can see several problems with my proposal.
First, the electron sticking proplem. The catalyst will be strongly electrophillic, and the second the heavy nucleon picks up an electron the muon will be shielded from taking part in further reactions. Im aware that some inertial confinement schemes use a petawatt laser to drive off electrons before the main driving laser that force the nuclei closer together; would that be possible here? Timed beam pulses, laser then catalyst?
Second, I know of no mechanism by which a beam of muonic nitrogens may be constructed.
Third, the rate of muon catalysed DT fusion turned out to be unexpectedly high due an energy resonance that made formation of a muonic DT molecule much more likely. I know of no such resonance regarding the formation of a muonic protium nitrogen molecule.
Finally, the coulomb barrier is fa
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Well mine did, along with the rest of the leadership team dressing in various animals to PASS OUT CANDY! Super cringe. How is your CNO helping during the pandemic?
