Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder Puns

I'm 23yrs old and was diagnosed with a personality disorder aged 17. Recently diagnosed with cptsd.

I'm having EMDR Therapy and it's absolutely soul destroying..

So I'm gonna write the memory that I've always had. Then im going to tell you what EMDR brought back.

I am 13yrs old. I am 5'7 and around 150lbs I See a man staggering. He collapses. I run over. Pull him onto his back. He's bleeding from a head injury from the fall. He dies in my armz.

I see a man fall over. I run. I can't pull him on his back. He's lying next to concrete. I use my leg to pull him onto his back. I spend at least a minute trying to pull this obese man onto his back. I'm exhausted. I fall beside him when I eventually get him onto his back. I keep saying "you're okay you're okay". He's crying and trying to speak but mumbling. He looks directly into my eyes. His eyes are a light blue. I put my arms around him. He dies. I stand up and I see red and collapse. I get up and call 999

Multiple memories are coming back. I can remember the agony of being anally raped just 6 months after that man died. I can physically see my black chipped nail varnish on my hands. I can see my fingers spread and claw out when he forces himself in me. I can remember him trying to force me to blow him. I remember going into shock. I remember wiping blood off me.

There's even more than that.

It's a horrific mental illness to have complex post traumatic stress disorder. I feel cursed by it. I spent years drinking and drugging myself because all the traumatic memories were too much for me.

Please understand that it's extremely difficult for us.

And before anyone says anything. I am NOT saying it a person with my disorder is abusive you should be kind. No matter what Illness an abuser has, it does not condone them abusing others.

It seems to me whether you asking a trauma specialist vs psychiatrist what your diagnose will be for your emotional dysregulation.

Having a feeling empty day and could use the distraction, have at it.

Title pretty much says it all. Im fifty-three. I was abused as a child at home and at school. Was molested by a stranger. Changed schools a lot because of it. Massive instability. Home life was a nightmare. I was in a mental institution for a year when I was thirteen. I've been mentally ill and suicidal since I was nine or ten. I've been going to psychiatrists since I was thirteen.

I've struggled with mental illness all my life and was never able to work. I have been lucky to have supported independent housing for the last twenty three years. I went through another trauma twenty years ago that really messed me up. I took a course to become a Veterinary Office Assistant. The teacher picked on me so relentlessly I had a nervous breakdown. Sixteen years of agoraphobia and panic attacks.

When I turned forty-nine, my body fell apart. I got cfs and fibromyalgia. I think it was from all the trauma and abuse. It's harder for me to be physically ill because of my roller coaster emotions, hyperviligance, etc. I take pills for nightmares. I'm doing the best I can though and try to have faith in God although it is difficult. Thanks for reading this.

Hi guys,

I have a friend who deals with a lot of anxiety and has had several depressive episodes over the years, we believe it's mostly down to the past she has had which was rough, to say the least. She does attend therapy and is getting better but I often feel powerless as a friend whenever I see her go through rough times so I was wondering if someone could recommend a book or two for me to better understand her and consequently help her.

Just to be clear, this is not the same thing as PTSD, but is a similar thing. PTSD tends to be set by a singular, or small handful of, traumatic events. Car accidents, natural disasters, etc. Complex-PTSD is set on by a long, steady stream of these events, normally over the course of months to years, such as spending one's formative years in a state of parental abuse.

I was checking in on the subreddit r/CPTSD, and so many of the stories relayed there clicked. It's a very therapy oriented subreddit, as opposed to this one, which is geared more towards venting, advice, and reassurance. The symptoms of hyper-vigillence, general depressive disorder, anxiety, insomnia, are common.

Ever since I can remember hearing about the illness, I equated it with PTSD, which is poorly understood by the public thanks to American media abusing therapy specific terms such as 'trigger', and overall military worship. I thought PTSD was exclusively a soldier's illness that had to 'earned', and that thinking anything else was whiney, or unpatriotic. Turns out that was wrong, and that CPTSD is tragically common with victims of child abuse.

I'll start off by saying that I have had very bad repeated trauma from when I was 6 to about 13. I have lived with debilitating anxiety and depression for more than two decades. C-PTSD literally kills the part of you that is you, the self. What it feels like to be in C-PTSD is you dissociate from your body and it feels like there's some kind of demon inside you that's controlling and pulling your strings and makes you do things you would never do. Anyway, I'll let you read about it more here: https://www.healthline.com/health/cptsd#symptoms

I have recovered almost completely now. and I know it because the anxiety is completely gone. I'm 26 years old now. The interesting thing is, I didn't know I had C-PTSD until I healed from it, I was so used to the anxiety and pain, I thought that's what everyone is like.

I see so many of my friends who have problems with addiction. I can tell you it's most probably because you are using to remove the anxiety of existence. It's an unconscious need to die because life has gotten really bad for you and it's slowly making you lose touch with yourself. I understand it very intuitively because that's the only way I healed. I am a very sensitive soul lol.

If you don't get it intuitively, here's an explanation of what anxiety feels like. It feels like there is danger when there is none, it feels like you are going to be ridiculed and attacked or some form of that feeling. Even if there isn't anything actually threatening or bad there at the moment. It's feels like a constant panic of when you know some is hunting you and they are out to get you. Constant anxiety and nerves. For me, when certain situations triggered me, I would straight up feel like I would die. I would scramble like an animal and I would act out erratically.

You are smoking weed/watching porn(excessively) to get away from the anxiety that is ever present in your air.

The one thing that was most important for me to heal was: I worked so very hard to show myself love and compassion. I opened up to myself. I would recall all the things that hurt me and I would sob. and I wouldn't tell myself that my feelings aren't valid or fake or I'm pretending and being weak for attention. I had a lot of that growing up. I was extremely sensitive as a kid and no one was comfortable with feelings. Anyway, I won't get into that, it's not relevant. and the most important thing I did with all this... everytime I would feel an

We have diagnosed DID and C-PTSD (amongst other co-morbid disorders, but those two are the main focus/what impacts us the most). We have found these ama's help us to have more insight into ourselves and are very therapeutic, so ask us anything! :)

I was recently diagnosed with it. It's not like the typical PTSD where you experience something traumatic once like 9/11 or coming back from the war after experiencing horrific events from it. C-PTSD is similar except your trauma was ongoing throughout your childhood such as physical, mental, sexual, or emotional abuse at the hands of your caregivers.

For example, growing up as the scapegoat of the family, my mother would always belittle me, give me the silent treatment if I stood up and spoke for myself, call me names, spoke negative about me to other people in my presence, criticize everything I say, do, or wear, and projected all her insecurities and self-loathing onto me.

I finally went no-contact with her and it's going on a year. However, this whole nightmare left me with triggers. If my supervisor wants to have a one-on-one meeting with me to discuss my work performance I get anxieties. I don't take constructive criticism well even though I tell myself that this is not a personal attack on me but it's to help me do my job better. I got rid of all the pictures I have with my mother because whenever I look at them, I get really angry and go into a dark place in my head. Or even the sound of her voice would send me into a rage. It gotten so bad that I would lash out at my loved ones for no reason.

That's when I finally decided to go to therapy and was diagnosed with C-PTSD. Now, I have been giving some exercises to try whenever I get those triggers. It could be something as simple as the tone of someone's voice when I am addressed, or being invalidated when I am expressing concerns about a situation. Those exercises are helping me.

Anyone can relate?

Warning: potential triggers may be discussed within this post.

Edit: to add warning.

"Many abused children cling to the hope that growing up will bring escape and freedom.
But the personality formed in the environment of coercive control is not well adapted to adult life. The survivor is left with fundamental problems in basic trust, autonomy, and initiative. She approaches the task of early adulthood―establishing independence and intimacy―burdened by major impairments in self-care, in cognition and in memory, in identity, and in the capacity to form stable relationships. "- Judith Lewis Herman, Trauma and Recovery

Continuous emotional neglect during childhood counts as trauma too, which is not often discussed as it is less obvious than physical abuse.

Oh boy! This has been a long time coming.

I spent my teenage years in a military boarding school where I was bullied, beaten, humiliated and/or abused everyday! EVERYDAY!

It was like a prison. Survival of the fittest. I wasn’t the most masculine kid (wtf is that anyways) bottom 3 for sure. Needless to say that was good enough reason for me to be seen as a sex trophy. Everyone would tell me that it was my fault for being too nice and too inviting. I tried not being nice and that’s when the humiliations, beatings and bullying started. It never ended. Even when the bigger kids graduated and we were the biggest kids on the block I was still humiliated and bullied by my peers.

In those years I begged my parents a total of 2 times to get me out of there. I had two major meltdowns during those years. THATS FUCKING RIGHT! I only turned to my “caregivers” when I had a complete mental breakdown. My parents suck, they always had their shit to deal with so I learned early on that my parents aren’t really here to support me. They’re just here to make sure I study good and be successful. I didn’t tell them what was happening because I was prepared to endure it. Because as a teenager I thought I have to make the sacrifices my parents were making for me because they never fucking shut up about how grateful I should be and that how they starve to make sure I get my toys and gadgets. Which is bullshit because he always had the better toys and gadgets!

I confronted him about all of this and he said that I should stop blaming him about all this shit and that if I hold so many things against him I should maybe stop talking to him. So I told him to go fuck himself and that he should stop calling himself a Father because his pathetic brain could never comprehend what it means to be one. (I said a lot of shit! It was ugly but true)

I’m probably not going to have financial support anymore and that might mean that I’ll have to quit school and therapy and everything and go back to my shithole of a country. I’ve come this far on my own, I’ve endured so much and worked so hard on myself to not kill myself. I’m going to keep reading anything I can get my hands on and I’ll figure this shit out with or without a fancy shrink and a college degree! I just wanted to get this off my chest. Thanks for reading and I’ll see you guys on the other side!

Wow good news Awareness and recognition is growing...

“Complex post-traumatic stress disorder (CPTSD) is a #new diagnosis which has been developed for the forthcoming International Classification of Diseases 11th Revision criteria.”

Assessment of mental health problems in children following early maltreatment: What will the new diagnosis of complex PTSD add?

Margaret DeJong, Simon Wilkinson First Published December 9, 2019

I feel like many transgender individuals are at risk of developing this during transition, if not earlier in life.

>Complex post-traumatic stress disorder (C-PTSD; also known as complex trauma disorder)[1] is a psychological disorder that can develop in response to prolonged, repeated experience of interpersonal trauma in a context in which the individual has little or no chance of escape.

>Experiences in these areas may include:[5][18][19]
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>Changes in emotional regulation, including experiences such as persistent dysphoria, chronic suicidal preoccupation, self injury, explosive or extremely inhibited anger (may alternate), and compulsive or extremely inhibited sexuality (may alternate).
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>Variations in consciousness, such as amnesia or improved recall for traumatic events, episodes of dissociation, depersonalization/derealization, and reliving experiences (either in the form of intrusive PTSD symptoms or in ruminative preoccupation).
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>Changes in self-perception, such as a sense of helplessness or paralysis of initiative, shame, guilt and self-blame, a sense of defilement or stigma, and a sense of being completely different from other human beings (may include a sense of specialness, utter aloneness, a belief that no other person can understand, or a feeling of nonhuman identity).
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>Varied changes in perception of the perpetrators, such as a preoccupation with the relationship with a perpetrator (including a preoccupation with revenge), an unrealistic attribution of

Most of us have some idea about what Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) is. There is a growing body of research that indicates that there may be a similar, but substantially different kind of disorder called "Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder" (C-PTSD).

The main difference between PTSD and C-PTSD is that C-PTSD is associated with much longer periods of trauma and abuse, particularly if it happens to a child. Also, C-PTSD distorts a person's core identity, leading to feelings of worthlessness, helplessness, and deformation of a person's sense of self. (C-PTSD is not yet an "official" disorder, because it is not listed in the DSM-5 or the ICD-10.)

As I was Googling C-PTSD and reading about it, I had this "aha" feeling that C-PTSD explained a lot of the problems that ex-Christians are reporting, in personal conversations with my friends, posts on the ex-Christian sub-Reddit, etc. If so, this is encouraging because scientific research has also provided some insight into what treatments are effective.

I was wondering if anyone else thought that many ex-Christians might be suffering from C-PTSD, and whether treatments for C-PTSD might also help ex-Christians in their healing process.

Here's the Wikipedia article on C-PTSD:

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Complex_post-traumatic_stress_disorder

Could I have some help highlighting the differences between the two? I'm also curious if the two can overlap, given someone's past with their parents? For instance, maybe trauma/neglect/etc from parenting can exacerbate RSD causing CPTSD, therefore possibly creating a comorbid diagnosis? Thanks!

Today I finally went to see a psychologist and this is what she told me. Over the course of my life, I have seen counselors (at school) for being troubled, but I feel like this is the right diagnosis because it seems to make sense. I don't have anxiety. I was not "just another angsty teenager". I really did and still do have problems.

My therapist validated my concerns and believed me. I am so glad. I start eye movement desensitization and reprocessing (EMDR) treatment in a few weeks. All of this is expensive because it gives me hope. I am tired of being angry, sad, and anxious all the time. I can only hope this will work.

I am 21 and Female. I recently started Eye Movement Directional Reprocessing. I have never been in Trauma Therapy and two days ago my therapist started the trauma aspect. She told me that I bottle up all my memories and that I would end up having a hard time with my emotions, because of us bringing them up. She told me to use the skills she taught me, but I can't. I feel like I'm letting her down. She has me seeing her twice a week and I'm so upset that I am gonna go in on Friday and say that I got worse and didn't use the skills. Traumatic memories keep popping up in my head and it's so much that I can't use the skills. Some of my abusers I developed a Stockholm type of syndrome toward, and I think I focus way too hard on these memories now that their on the fore-front of my mind. I don't know if she even believes me about my one trauma. I want to be healthy, so bad. I don't know what to do.