I'll never forget the first time you did it.
I'll never forget the fear, the the flashing fluorescent light that sat above the piano I used to look at while it happened, your Yves Saint Laurent perfume you used to douse yourself in that you could smell before you'd even walked into the room, your breath that was always icy fresh, your purple lip stick.
I'll never forget how every Tuesday afternoon, not even 10 minutes into me practicing scales your hand would snake down my stomach and into my underwear, and how you would try to pretend like you weren't doing anything; your warm leathery hands touching me somewhere that I had yet to understand.
I'll never forget how grown up I felt, how much I would look forward to it. I told myself that the obsessions I had with my female teachers in later years had nothing to do with this. I told myself that the scars I was hiding from my parents had nothing to do with this. I told myself that my porn addiction that I developed when I barely had body hair had nothing to do with this.
I'll never forget that you are the reason that I am afraid to be alone with my own mum. You are the reason that I've taught my sister to never be alone with an adult. You are the reason that I have scars so deep they made a surgeon wince.
I'll never forget the problems that have stemmed from you hurting me like this. If I stare at a florescent light I zone out, the same as hands running through my hair. If my girlfriend tries to initiate sex without warning me, I vomit out of fear. If she puts her hand anywhere near my stomach I lash out. I can't have sex with my own beautiful girlfriend without your face popping into my head. You have ruined me. I will never recover.
I'll never forget when you died, either. It was a shock to the community, everyone was devastated. Then the word got out that it was suicide. I don't know how you went, but I know you left a note. In the note you talked about your husband, how it was his fault. How he was the one who drove you to this. Beating you, typing you up... raping you. You talked about drinking yourself to numbness. You talked about how your dad did the same to you as a kid, and how you thought you had accidentally attracted a husband who would do the same.
You may have robbed me of an innocence that could never be repaid, but I think for the first time in my life I understand now. You were using me to feel like you had control in your life; that you didn't just live to be used by someone who wa
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I started learning piano 2 years ago, fully by ears, now I can only play pop songs, I can not read any kind of music notes whatsoever, and I feel bad about it. I'm about to hire a tutor and anticipate that the learning process may take up to 7-8 years. As I have never had music lessons before, I am really confused and need some advices asap, should I continue working jobs that make me suffer or proceed to chase my dream? And what is required for a person to be a piano teacher?
By the way, I apologize if my english sounds horrible.
Thank you all in advance!
I have played the piano for years and have quite a good level. With the start of my studies it became impossible to have a teacher as I was away from home. But I have quite long vacations so I decided to practice during my vacations. But after practicing old songs over and over again I have lost the drive to practice. I would like to work on a new song but I don't have a teacher anymore to pick a song that is adapted. Have you got any tips?
Kind of an odd question but I'm asking because I get a bit of a vibe I'm not sure I like off it - I only ever have watched YMS and I love Adam's work. I started with the Piano Teacher episode because I'd just watched it and was desperate to hear some discussion of it. What I found in the episode was absolutely great stuff from Adam who clearly has put a lot of thought and research into the film and has endless things to say about it - but with the others, there seemed to be a weird atmosphere of not really loving it that much but at the same time just wanting to agree with Adam. Adam sounded like the only really confident one there who had no concern for potentially saying something wrong or saying something the others would take issue with. It seemed from their initial impressions that Ralph and Alex didn't love it too much, and they both repeated what either Adam or the other were saying when they spoke about what they like in the movie. In fact the only one who seemed to speak up on how he disliked aspects (beyond purely technical stuff like the dodgy ADR that Ralph brought up) was Chris, who pointed out parts where it dragged and parts that frustrated him. I respected that he spoke his mind and it sounded like Adam really welcomed the debate too, but I just got the constant impression the others were holding back even though they maybe did have reservations, but didn't want to say something that stepped over Adam's opinion. Is it always like this? With Adam being the dominant sort of opinion of the group and the other two rarely going another direction? I love Adam's work and the Q&A segment on the episodes were great, they're all funny, but regarding the film analysis (the biggest chunk of the show) tbh I don't love the idea of a podcast where three guys record themselves for an hour talking about a film and agreeing with each other or saying different versions of the same point. I'd much rather a show where the three have somewhat distinct tastes and have healthy debate about films.
What makes the piano so special? I have seen people who have been to international math and programming competitions studying on their own. What makes it so that the piano, in particular, requires a teacher?
for context this is the amount of stuff i have to have polished by the end of this year:
bach prelude and fugue 10-12
bach goldberg variation 1-3
scarlatti sonata k.141
mozart twinkle variations
beethoven rondo y capriccio
beethoven waldstein sonata mov 1
chopin nocturne in c# minor
chopin etude op 10 no 3
chopin etude op 10 no 12
liszt liebestraum no 3
chopin ballade no 1
grieg concerto no 1
im hella fucced, i have only learned about 3/4 of what i have to learn and havent even started the concerto, wish me luck yall. Classical musician teens, if you understand this, may ling ling be with me
So I've only had a couple of lessons with my piano teacher,this time as soon as we started I told her about how a girl (some time ago) taught me something on the piano before. From the way I talked about her, my teacher assumed that I indeed liked this girl, and I (half-jokingly) replied that I just have a thing for redheads. This came off as a joke and it was all fine.
Anyway, lesson's over and after she tells me what to learn for the next lesson, with a straight face I just add "And if you could wear a red wig"....which didn't come across as funny as I thought.
I had to say "I'm just joking" and tried to play it off but she wasn't amused.
I'm not sure if I should continue with someone I just creeped off, right now I just want to bury myself
Films of grounded but slightly disturbed character studies where the majority of the film focuses on their own emotional downfall rather then getting bogged down with sub plots.
Hopefully they include, a slower pace, beautiful visuals, incredible performances, be shown subtle things that inform you about the characters mental state that you can pick up if you pay close attention rather than being flat out told. The film doesnβt have to include all of these but as much as possible.
The films that I have mentioned I consider all of them masterpieces and the closer of a film you can find the better.
Some films people have recommended but just donβt scratch the same itch include: Black Swan, Drive, Nightcrawler, Simon Killer, A Serious Man, Birdman, American Psycho and Welcome to the Dollhouse
Thanks
I've read it is never too late to start learning piano. Let's find out if that is true!
Iβm sorry if thereβs already a thread about this, but Iβve been wondering recently which is better to teach from. I usually start my students with Alfredβs, but recently Iβve had a couple switch over and they were working through Faber, so we stuck with that.
I'm always pretty behind on this podcast and on their movie recommendations so I'm only just now trying to watch this movie. Problem is, I can't find it anywhere. Does anything stream it in the us? Do I have to buy a dvd of it? I know I could sail the seven seas but I'd like to avoid it if at all possible.
Hey all, looking for a piano and music/theory teacher for myself (adult and might be considered intermediate). Someone who can cover beginner to advanced and both jazz and classical composition/theory/improvisation etc. Would prefer someone currently playing with a solid resume and with a notable music degree would be a plus but not necessary. Google/yelp/CL have pretty iffy results so thought I'd ask here. Thanks!
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