Restraint on alienation Puns

I wasn’t really alarmed, though, until she picked up the bowl of melted wax and told me to “open wide.”

I wish I hadn’t gotten so old.

This was the entire point of dying young. To save me the pain of having to go through these experiences.

It’s hard to find anyone my age who if they have their life in order are already paired away and I’m superfluous. And if they don’t, they might be even bigger wrecks than me.

It’s hard to make friends at this age if you never had a lot to begin with.

I wish someone had been more upfront with me when I was younger. That I truly do not have anything to live for. That I would have even less people to live for in the future than I did back then. That I don’t know it but life would be even worse for me in the future.

Getting old is just watching everyone else die around you. And watching your life get smaller and colder. And darker and bleaker. And occasionally praying that you don’t pass out from the pain.

I’m so truly ashamed and embarrassed to even be here still, saying these stupid things. I don’t deserve the life that was given to me.

Hi all,

So I've been playing and really enjoying Alienation the past 3 years. However I never found a devastator with boomerang on shoot. Is there anyone who has the safefile with this weap?

In return the gods will bless you!

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Last November my wife filed for divorce which she has yet to complete her side of. Currently my visitation rights with my 6 year-old daughter is "based on mutual agreement" and "non-professionally monitored by friends/family". While I had interpreted this to mean we might be able to agree on a good amount of time for me to spend with my daughter and also that the monitored situation would be short-term or "a cooling off period" as it was described to me, in actuality I am only allowed to see my daughter two hours every month.

Within a month of us separating my wife started dating another guy. Within three months he had moved in with her and the kids were calling him dad. Even during my visitations my daughter calls me by my first name now. Due to my wife rejecting every other suggestion for a monitor that I made, she insisted it be her boyfriend as the monitor. It's heartbreaking hearing my daughter call him dada right in front of me.

My ex is so desperate to get a new man and "dad" in her life for my daughter and my three step-children that she is not only encouraging the kids to call him dad, but she's having a 5th child with him via In-Vitro Fertilization. This is not surprising, as things were similar 7 years ago when I first started dating her. Within a month her three children of 1 and 2 (twins) at the time were apparently calling me "dad". I thought that was super fast and she claimed it was natural. Their actual father was being pushed out legally and barely got to see them too. Then, before I had a chance to end things with her, she got pregnant. She claimed she was on BC but I have my doubts.

Rinse and Repeat and here we are. She's trying to push me out legally and she's having another kid with someone she barely knows again, acclimating him as the new dad.

I just want to be part of my child's life. What am I able to do?

I see this topic on here quite a bit ( and believe me I’ve searched for it repeatedly) – How do I move on? Or, What does it feel like to move on? When will I know I’m finally moving on? What is holding me back from moving on? And many other questions related to that concept we’ve so desperately sought, the final accomplishment to finally free ourselves from the pain we’re suffering – moving on.

At least in my experience, I found that moving on wasn’t as simple as merely allowing time to pass. Nor was it just choosing to freely walk down a path away from the relationship. Don’t get me wrong – both time passing and making the decision to move on are very important. But I found that before I could put time on my side, before I could start walking away, I had to cut the ties holding me back. Remove the restraints tethering me to a sinking ship. I'll list the applicable restraints I found holding me back in a rough order of when I freed myself from them. Keep in mind, this took time and didn't happen overnight. (This was my personal experience and may be different person to person.) Novel time!

The ties that bind…

1) Reminders. Photos, songs, places, thoughts, feelings, text messages.

How I removed this tie: I quickly deleted everything after the break up. All the pictures, notes, our text message thread. Even though I hated the thought, I knew deep down I needed to not be able to easily remind myself of what they looked like whenever I wanted. I needed to slowly let go of any mental image of what we looked like together. I couldn’t let them speak to me from beyond the grave through reading their old text messages and messages of endearment.

This will be hard to do. And there will come weak moments where you “regret” it. “I just wish I could read how much they loved me one last time! It won’t hurt me, I promise.” But it will hurt. “Just one last time” is like a drug addict hoping for just one more hit before they go sober forever, they promise. The relationship is over. I would’ve been looking at pictures of dead people – neither who my former partner was in that moment, or who I was, exist anymore. I would’ve been reading the words of someone who will never say those words to me again.

2) Acclimating to a Break in Routine. Dealing with The Silence (as I’ve seen someone else put it on here)– no longer receiving text messages, phone calls, memes. No more date nights, planned trips, etc.

How I removed this tie: This is one of the ties which r