I think I’m really done this time. I don’t like the way it makes me feel or act. I don’t like feeling sick in the morning and full of regrets. I just don’t want to be that person anymore. So Happy Valentine’s Day to me. I’m going to start loving myself more ❤️
Seriously, I've had enough of all this wind and rain
So many regrettable birthdays since, some ending in deep shame. So now, 45 birthdays later, sober again. No regrets, no hangover, no pile of dead expensive bottles, no day off work to recover. I have too much shit to achieve in my life to have another drunk birthday. Rock on!
My heavily drinking dad died of liver failure when he was barely 40. I'm still young and pretty healthy, but I have a sneaking suspicion mine isn't doing too well and I hope to get it checked out in the very near future. Something genetic, maybe. I don't think I would say I had a drinking problem but it felt like I was going down that road. I would spend all week thinking about how relieving it would be to drink on the weekend, then I would start having an extra glass here or there, and eventually I got to a point a few months ago when I was occasionally getting smashed on a Wednesday night. Usual college stuff, I suppose. I restricted myself back to just weekends but I feel the same urges coming back.
This morning, waking up at 4 a bit hungover from last night, I started seriously thinking more about my dad and my own health. I figured it would be much easier to quit while I'm still ahead, so about an hour ago I emptied out every bottle of alcohol in my apartment. Hopefully this starts something better.
I don't know if I'm reading too much into this but in ACOK Daenerys III (pg 520), the wine is described as tasting of "fruit and hot summer days". Then on the same page, only 2 paragraphs later, the wine is described again as tasting of "pomegranates and hot summer days".
It is likely nothing but I found it really odd that the same sentence structure would be repeated so close together:
"The wine tasted of fruit and hot summer days." ... "The wine tasted of pomegranates and hot summer days."
The second mention of the taste of the wine really took me out of the book and kind of confused me, especially since the topic of the wine was over and they were talking about "the Pureborn" and other stuff.
Anyone else notice this or know why it's there twice??? am I reading into this too much?
