"The Ballista isn't particularly fun in the PU" and "ToW will absolutely have the same lag as everything else" can be tough to hear, but Sean unabashedly points them out and then, without skipping a beat, immediately talks about what they're doing to fix the issues.

I appreciate game companies that say "we know this sucks, we're working on it", but this feels like an almost unparalleled level of transparency.

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April 10th come now

I have lost my confidence. I take fights slower even against bad players. I feel rushed all the time and nervous in even the basic of fights. I can win fights but feel like I “shouldn’t” have won them. I don’t know what happened but it’s making me want to quit... any tips would be appreciated. I’ve been playing escape from tarkov with only slight nervousness and that’s 10x more intense. Wtf happened to me.

Edit: happens in normal games too.

Today, I am going to share how being good at League of Legends gave me a lot of self-confidence when I was younger.

Let’s go back in time.

In late 2012, I was a shy 15-year-old boy going through puberty. The world was scary, school was scary, girls were scary.

Like any reasonable teenager, I escaped the real world through video games. My friends introduced me to League of Legends. I fell in love with the community, the characters, and especially the game mechanics.

In February 2013 I began my climb in the ladder system and initially started out in Silver III (fairly average). The competitive nature instantly activated my deep urge to prove myself and I started playing more and more. I fantasized about how it would feel like to be really good at this game and used that as motivation to take on the challenge.

In order to get better

I studied the best players out there: observing their games, watching their streams, and reading their guides.

I stopped getting upset by individual losses and instead cultivated a growth mindset. Everybody was obsessed with winning and climbing the ranks. I got obsessed with learning — winning became the result.

I built upon my playstyle continuously. Each death and lost game became an opportunity to learn.

I discussed the game in-depth with close friends who were exceptionally good at the game.

7 months and 1000 games later

I reached the top ~2000 on the European Server (at the time League of Legends already had 12 million daily active players globally).

I felt proud and accomplished.

But more importantly, I realized that if

… I set my mind towards something

and

… I put in the work

I could achieve whatever I wanted.

As someone who struggled a lot with self-confidence, it was a realization that hit hard. Instead of feeling powerless, I felt like I was in control of my destiny.

That insight opened a thousand new doors for me.

Suddenly everything became possible.

It occurred to me that I could use the same strategies that helped me to become good at a video game to improve other areas of my life.

From one day to the next I stopped playing League of Legends and completely turned my remaining high school years around.

I started going to the gym and went from being a very skinny guy, weighing 58kg, to gaining nearly 20kg of muscle and deadlifting over 200kg in 2 years.

Social Interactions became less scary and more enjoyable as I started to put myself out there and learned about personal develo