I have only been back here just over a week. I cant take it anymore. I'm being treated like im 16 again with bullshit rules like i cant talk past 9, i cant cook past 10pm, have to be awake early and i have to go out and get a fucking job.
I have serious mental health issues, i was abused by my dad and i now have pstd due to it and over the last few years ive tried to off myself multiple times. Im in the middle of being assessed to see if im even fit to work anymore, and I cant even continue with my job as Im self employed and due to my mums lie I cant even hope to continue anytime soon.
I was told my sister would be moving out early next year and part of the deal of me coming back is that i could use her room to work in, i need a lot of space for what i do, I've been having time off work due to my mental and physical health being in shambles so a few more months off would be fine. But guess what? my sister isnt moving out, not for another year at best. All my expensive work equipment and materials are now in storage in someones garage i have no clue whos nor the state of the stored area.
Im in a constant fight over my awake hours. Due to my severe depression and anxiety I live in a night time schedule, I like to wake up around 5-6pm and essentially be nocturnal, due to my anxiety being its worse during the day and overall im massively more productive, happy and content with my shit existence at night. But due to being treated like a fucking child if i so much as mumble a word past 9pm my step dad enables a child lock on my internet, not my sisters as well, only mine. Great way to completely ruin what little socialisation i have left and ruining any form of coping mechanism I have developed over the years huh?
I want out of here. Now. But I simply do not have the income to do so, I only get Universal credit right now, hopefully something more when my assessment results are in, but Im now back in an extremely expensive area and having lost all my white goods and furniture as my parents insisted on getting a van to pack my stuff into to move back with, only to get the tiniest thing and having to abandon so much of it costing me more than it wouldve to get a proper moving team in.
I need 2 rooms. I need my space to be able to do what I need to, but UC doesnt even cover a single bedroom in a house share around here, and it sure as hell didnt cover a flat out in the middle of nowhere where rent is low either.
I just dont know what to do. Everyday im gett
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My 11-12 year old female, spayed chihuahua who had weighed 17 lbs but was down to 12. The only symptom was weight loss over 4 months. She was active Tuesday and by 1:30 am she was listless and would not respond to her name, move or respond to key words that normally get response. Something was definitely wrong. We left for the vet shortly after seeing this. We live in Mesa az and she had her shots and was due for annual ones in a month. We do not go to dog parks. We have several dogs and a good sized yard and she was an inside dog. Once at the vet, the first thing that was found was that she had elevated sodium and had lost weight. Her blood cell levels were also elevated. She died less than 5 hours after being admitted. What could have been cause? No, we did not give her anything with salt! She had no prior symptoms. When I went to go to bed, She wouldn’t get up. Took her to the vet and she had an a unknown mass, gas and fluid in her stomach. She coded and was resuscitated she was given fluids without sodium and seemed better. She sorta rallied and vomited which they were happy about because they could not put a tube down her throat to drain her stomach due to low blood pressure. Obviously to dangerous to give her anesthesia. After she had vomited, we left. Less than 90 minutes later they called and said her sodium levels were at normal levels but she was flipping onto her back and crying out but they didn’t think we needed to come back yet. It was 6am and we had taken her in around 2am we live 10 minutes from the vet hospital. 19 minutes later she coded again and was unable to be resuscitated. I am so absolutely confused as to what could have caused her to just die! What could have caused her sodium levels to be so high (184 I think). Literally other than losing some weight (she was overweight) she had no symptoms that we knew of. She ate, drank, went to the bathroom, played and was completely active. Any suggestions as to possible causes would be appreciated! She was an 11-12 year old chihuahua. I have a call into the vet to see if they know what the mass was and for more information but haven’t heard from them yet. No X-rays or other records yet but hopefully have them tomorrow. Sorry if this is all over the place. This has been beyond devastating!
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My boyfriend (24M) and I (22F) have been together for almost 4 years. We met when we were both early into our college educations. He is now a teacher and is coaching too. I’m still pursuing higher education while working a part time job. The issue is: We’ve talked about marriage, but he’s wanting to wait until I get done with school to even get engaged so he can “pay off his student loans.” But that’s 2 more years. I’ve tried to explain to him that a long engagement would be nice to be able to focus on school, graduate, finding a job in my career of study, work on buying a house, plan the wedding, etc. But I don’t think he’s on the same page. For the past few weeks he has been acting extra sweet and loving, so I thought maybe there was a proposal in the midst because he hinted he was planning something. But tonight he texted me and said “I just ordered your Christmas present online….” and it made me sad because I know he didn’t get a ring. From the way he talked it sounded like he got me shoes. Don’t get me wrong, I’m appreciative, it’s just not what I was expecting and I’m bummed out and I don’t know what to do. Also, I’m not one of those girls who is in love with the idea of a wedding and not a marriage. I see myself spending the rest of my life with him. But now I wonder does he feel the same way? He’s been really accommodating to my multiple family functions (per usual) for thanksgiving…and just genuinely sweet all around….but I just worry he doesn’t feel the same way. Idk…maybe I’m overreacting…
Do I talk to him? What do I say? Please help.
The area right beneath my spawn keeps getting hotter and hotter (Oceania seed) and I've been trying all ways to cool that steam back down to water (it used to be a reservoir).
Is this a lost cause? I've gone up to 260 cycles and there's no way to succeed it seems. Been reading around and it seems that steam turbines delete heat but I can't get any plastic so I've been slowly harvesting the crude oil from slicksters.
The area at the bottom left also seems to be overpressurising and heating everything up.
I tried to drill all the way up to space but there's just too much salt water and the commutes are way too long...
PS: This is my first game, turned on debug mode because I'm about to give up.
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So my wallet is is loaded, and I can see my bitcoin, which is very frustrating, but I saved over the file where I saved my password so I can't do anything with it.
Should I just say goodbye to that money? Or is there anyway to get it back?
Thanks for any help
Like the title says I'm on year number nine without any friends I don't even know how to talk to people. Apparently I come off as completely emotionless or uninterested in most of my conversations with people. The only time I'm really able to talk with people is when I'm talking to my coworkers other than that I have no one I talk to. I'm horrible at talking to people I need to talk to as well like if I'm paying for something at a cash register or in a place I don't know I always mess up talking to the people and panic if they ask me something I don't know about.
Well basically I have no idea how to have a conversation with anyone.
Super long title sorry
I dont have many friends anyways most are married and for have children now so I spend most of my time now either with my girlfriend or on my own and I see my close friends maybe once a month but I do feel like something is missing since I have moved away from my home town even though I didnt really do much when i was there I'm quite a big game movie tv nerd I've also got quite in to space over the last few years I dont really know what else to write 🤙🏻
TL;DR: Never got any friend ever, scared or human faces/heads, have autism/ADHD. Is it too late for me or is there still hope?
17M, first year of college. Here's a quick rundown of my social life up until now:
As you can see, it's pretty empty. This has several causes (at least I think so).
First, I never had any friend whatsoever, ever since elementary school. The only "friend" I ever got literally hanged out out of pity (at least according to him in middle school). The other people I could consider aquaintances were mostly my brother's friends, so they mostly hung out with him. They would occasionnaly interact with me, but that was about it. I ended being completely alone (not counting family + pets) since first year of high school. Nowadays I literally only talk to others when they talk to me first (writing is fine, however)
Second, I'm always scared of people's faces. I never understood this part, because it's just so random but so detrimental for me, because if I wanna talk to them I have to look at their body instead of their head. Needless to say, making eye contact is impossible for me (plus, I already find eyes in general to be unconfortable to look at in general). In some cases that could be the entire human body that scares me, but it's mostly the face/head
Last but not least, I have autism + ADHD. Which kinda means I'm only interested in talking about what I like AKA video games for me, especially fighting games, which suck even more since I need someone else in order to play. Everything else I'll just skip over/not listen because I find it boring. And when I'm not doing the thing I like I just end up sleeping out of boredom
To be frank, I'm mostly writing this post because I'm really desperate, I don't want my arms to suffer anymore because of that. Otherwise I would've tanked it like I always do whenever I got trouble (be it physical or mental). Given how much things are not in my favor at all in terms of socializing, am I currently so deep in loneliness/social inability I can't ever improve on that matter? Am I doomed to be alone until the end?
PS: Sorry if this isn't the right sub for that kind of posts. Also sorry for the eventual english errors
