I’ve been building a practice with konmari since about 2016 when I first read ‘The Life Changing Magic of Tidying Up’. I’ve always struggled with keeping my space organized and even struggled after Konmari, although many of the practice have helped me greatly - especially the way she describes ensuring everything in your home has its place.
I think my problem is that I don’t become conscious of the fact that things are not in the place I’ve designated for them until the whole space is visibly out of balance. I don’t notice papers and pens and clothes out of place until the whole room is visibly ‘messy’.
I was wondering if there was a way of noticing that my space is getting cluttered before it gets out of hand?
My psychiatrist said i might have schizophrenia, but i dont have any delusions or hallucinations so i was wondering that
I didn't even realize I had this symptom until recently, after years of having this disorder. For me, it looks like an inability to prioritize, to make decisions, to think and convey what I'm thinking to others without it sounding nonsensical. For several years I've gone through periods where what I say is complete nonsense and I had no idea. People at work keep saying "what" to me as I talk. I've had people get angry at me and I had no idea why. Turns out I wasn't making sense at all while speaking. But people don't even know what's wrong, they think it's just the way I talk, they have no idea it's a disorder, or maybe they do. It is to spot this symptom from my perspective because I just feel normal when it happens.
The only language test my district has is the CELF (which I am trying to change). I've had a few students this year who are younger (5-8 years) who score WNL on every subtest, but make tons of morphological/grammatical errors in a language sample. His personal narratives are also very disjointed, lack cohesion, and sometimes do not include enough details to be understood. How do you handle it in the schools when a student has average scores but presents below their peers in conversation?
Am I the only one who struggles with this? I think some things are clean or organized and literally no one agrees with me and still tell me in messy. Like I don’t understand 😭
I literally cannot ‘see’ the disorganization or mess.
To clarify: I generally play tall, which helps a little. But once I hit ~ turn 100 or so I begin to feel a little overwhelmed with the sheer amount of options and I start to struggle with the feeling that things aren't optimized or orderly. I watch some of the YouTubers, and I admire how they have a clear focus and vision - but I'm a little too casual a player for that sort of specific knowledge and optimization. Civ V felt a little cleaner as everything was contained within the city, but I'm commited to VI at the moment. To make a long question short: curious if anyone else struggles with this. Thanks for chiming in, y'all.
Delusions are common in my world. Mostly due to boredom and guilt. Most delusions I can work myself out of with reality checks. The cops don't have a budget to do what your delusion is saying. People would know you were screaming in your head if they could read minds. Etc.
But when psychosis comes on suddenly you don't get that time to work it out. With disorganization the delusions come on quickly and seemingly fully formed. Normal everyday things suddenly become signs, and symbols.
At my last visit to a psych hospital I had three delusions I can fully remember. The first one is that I was being falsely accused of a crime. I even tried to "get away" in a "not fully sane" way. It was snowing, and I didn't even have a jacket.
The second was that the U.S. was taken over by another country. The pandemic was made up to remove unwanted people, and the hospital was a way to do it.
The third was that I was getting to go home, and people were out to steal my stuff. I wasn't getting to go home, I was just moved to another ward.
I then threw a tantrum, broke a large window, tried to run away again. I even jumped the nurses counter in an attempt to find a way out. They had to wrestle me to the ground until I calmed down. Then, I got a record three shots while being held. Not my best moment.
It's embarrassing being at the whim of delusions. Afterward I remember how I behaved, sometimes even the reasoning. Once back to sanity it's like being woken up out a dream. The magic of the delusion goes away, and there is sad being left behind.
I don't like the attention it brings when you act odd. In my past it's what gets you hurt.
When you throw in disorganization you lose control of reality for awhile. I guess I'm glad I was in the right place to knock me back into reality, but hospitals are still unpleasant. They are not a place for a forced vacation. The constant checks and noise make it hard to relax.
(bolding customer service below for formatting):
Here's where I'm at:
I started using 1 password in 2016.
I have over 400 passwords stored in there - that's a mess which I need go through and fix (advice on how appreciated) but right now, the priority is simply getting something usable which updates across my devices.
Just bought an iPhone 12, and want to be able to use those passwords on both the phones that I have, along with my MacBook air.
So, I upgraded to 1 password 7, and downloaded the app to my new phone.
I go to access my passwords, and they're not in the app.
I contact customer service via the form online, and below is the chain of events. The problem is, I feel that whatever I'm saying is being ignored. I made it clear: got the app on the phone. I want simple. I don't understand why I need to have a primary vault and a personal vault, and why I need to move information between the two.
Please, *I just want something that works*.
How can I make this happen, because the answers I'm getting is not helping me.
What can I do?
When I use 1 password on the new phone now, the passwords are there, but they're in the personal account, and the default is primary.
So, you hit a password, pickup the phone, or type your password in, hit default, then have to choose secondary, find the password, and get it to fill.
There has to be an easier way, and I'd appreciate your help.
Kevin in customer service:
Thanks for the diagnostics report! I took a look at your report and I think I see the root of the problem. Alongside your 1Password account, you also have a standalone vault (most likely named Primary). Standalone vaults are stored locally on your machine, and rely on a third party service (like iCloud or Dropbox) to sync data between your devices. The data saved in your standalone vault is not stored in your 1Password account. To get things sorted out, all you should need to do is move the data in your Primary vault to your Personal vault. Here's a guide you can use: How to move or copy items.
After you've moved all of your data into your Personal vault, can you sign in to your account on 1Password.com again and let me know if you can see your data?
All the best,
Me:
I'm very, very, confused.
This is what I need:
One place (call it a vault, call it whatever you want) where everything is stored, saved, and synced.
I do not want multiple things that I need to shift between,
... keep reading on reddit ➡any tips, guys???
Hello, I want to write my experiences but there's no way to do that when I have disorganization. Slowly, I am getting better. I'm actually able to enjoy things like writing again. It's been four years since I wrote anything, ever since my last manic episode had me convinced I was a hemingway-level famous author and really fucked up my confidence after I got on medication. But I'm getting over that, slowly but surely.
But I'm an organizational mess. The vocabulary is dull, the word order is off. Where do I put X, how do I style Y? The potential is there, the desire is there, but is unfulfilled. I don't know how to order anything, like the internal "number line" or priority list, or whatever you want to call it, is off.
I don't just want to write a story but this story is very important to me for a personal reason. I've been trying to write it for 3 years, the characters are so developed they may as well be real. They were my company during the darkest time in my life and I owe them an existence.
I don't know if taking a class will help. Neurological or educational, can't be certain. I look at some of my old writings and I'm blown away by what I used to be capable of, a long time ago. Even this post is awful, but I don't know what went wrong. The medication slightly worsened my verbal ability. I used to be so creative but things just won't order themselves anymore, no more of that.
2019 Rachael movie is on, the third in the Vineyard series as they lurch toward their HEA wedding.
The couple is 'fighting through' relationship issues, but all except 2 of the issues are merely organizational, and the other two are external.
The two external issues are the other couple getting formally engaged first and Rachael's character rolling over to be fair to give her the spotlight and the primo wedding arrangements, and the misunderstanding where to meet for a drink at their favorite spot.
Everything else was addressable by organizing their lives. Not doing the invitations correctly? Ask first. Make a marker system for which rows have been sprayed at the borders between their yards (I assume for the rest of the property they had systems in place and they just didn't translate well for the new fields.) When at the couple's course ask for clarification first instead of feeling rushed into the event by pressure from the perfect other couple. Don't feel pressured to make cutesy paper displays while working outside.
Inevitable for a Hallmark was the low formal test score for couple interaction, the zipline couple scene where the girl acts terrified, and the last minute frost* attacking the vineyard used for the double wedding, so I don't count those.
*The solution was well foreshadowed, but I would have expected that solution to be well known in the industry anyway IRL.
A constant theme that I can never identify with is disorganization. I am incredibly organized and am always cleaning. If I see any mess it disrupts all my thinking and I have to clean it up before getting to my task which is normally homework.
By the time I've finished cleaning to my standard I'm much too tired to actually get to homework. I am an absolute tornado when I tidy up. Like a ping pong ball bouncing from room to room.
I'm also get incredible anxiety about forgetting things. So my work desk is kept meticulously clean so I can find things quickly. I'm thinking I've developed this coping strategy over time. But actually maintaining it really takes away from being able to work.
Does anyone else work this way? I was diagnosed with ADHD about a year ago and have learned so much about how my brain works. But being disorganized or late for things is never something I could identify with.
I accepted a job as a medical scribe at my local urgent care. I had typical workplace orientations and training online. When it came to actual scribe training, I got maybe 30 minutes on documentation. I was then supposed to have someone oversee and teach me in-person for 64 hours. This never happened and I told my manager about this, who apologized and then did nothing to fix it.
There has been no communication with the providers I work with. For the past few weeks, I have been showing up and the provider doesn't know what to do with me nor wants to teach me. I end up sitting there for 9 hours and then leave.
I was told I would get a monthly schedule- last week they forgot about me and I lost out on work because nobody put me on the schedule. My manager just told me my days for this week, 2 days in advance!! I have exams and can't just wait every day for my schedule. No changes have been made and it's causing me daily stress.
People at the urgent care have told me they don't need me and don't understand why I am there. The workplace environment has not been welcoming and is horribly disorganized. I still have not gotten proper training and don't know what to do at this point.
Should I try to wait it out a little or quit and find another job?
Looking for any advice on this because I am torn.
Most roommates won’t put up with the disorganization that comes from ADHD at least for me. I find that requires me to basically live alone in a place that has more space than I would normally need if I was more organized. And it sucks because that costs more money. But no one ever said this disorder was cheap.
So my board hasn't given us much information but the Ottawa board nearby has been told they will be teaching online all next week from their classrooms. First off isn't the point of this to see if people have symptoms after the break and get tested thus not bringing it into the schools? How the fuck does coming into school to teach prevent this? And secondly Ford you moron, if you think teachers aren't going to congregate when they get back you are more stupid than you look. You've thrown people online with no resources or support and don't expect them to get together to talk about how to help each other while at school together? And some kids with no tech at home to support these. I figure about 1/4 of my class will be tuned in at the most.
As usual half-assed measures from this government. There is no way I am streaming online all day from the classroom. I know I am not the only one. What are they going do - fire us all? Is anyone else pissed off about this shit show? I'd rather take my chances in class with my regular students than go through this dog and pony show. Thanks for the vent :-
I hate it when I just cleaned my room and then the next day it's dirty again I don't even know how the hell that even happened. What did I do for my room to look like pig stye in 2.5 seconds and its not just my room either it's also my bookbag. I organize my books in the morning and at 5th period my bookbag looks like a jungle and I'm looking for the homework that I probably lost at who knows where. Life said nope we hate you and you cant have organized books and folders the book that you brought for math will now be a book you put every other subject other than math. You know all of your books will be your personal sketchbook where you draw your best artwork at. It gets so bad to the point where I feel uncomfortable if it's too clean and doesn't have a little bit of clutter. Being disorganized and clumsy like me is betrayed as very cute and humorous when it's very impactful to your life and in the worst ways possible you get made fun of it and people write you off as lazy. My mom has OCD so you guys can imagine the hell I go through and I keep trying to explain how hard this is to deal with and I don't try to be messy but my parents won't listen to me.
Order is disorder
My room proves this true
Attention is distraction
I pay attention to what distracted me
Chaos is reality, all that it can be
I can’t put anything into order for the life of me
Doublethink is life, love and precise
Normal is different
“Oh, everyone’s a bit different sweetie, it’s just a button on the washing machine.”
Having a disorder is being a liar
“It’s all in your head, it’s no excuse at all, just get up and fight.” expects you to act the same as a normal person without help
When that doesn’t happen, surprise pikachu face always ensues
Hiding behind a mask is being yourself
Chipping away who you were is true to form
It’s all that you’ve ever known in truth and being
What you say is all excuses to get out of doing things
I have a sort of thing, it’s called hyper ultra focus, but here’s the problem, it’s only to things that I like
Forgetting things is my mantra, that’s why I write down everything I think
Yeah, we actually can focus, on things which we like only, if you’ve got an interest, your ability is amplified
However, if there’s something in the area which is shiny, you’ll get me distracted instantly
We don’t sleep as well as neurotypicals, we were the scavengers of the past, stuffed up with stimulants with great prowess
Yeah, you’re problematic, we’re going to stuff you up with drugs, everyone’s caught on drugs
Entropy takes over always, nothing is free from this struggle in life, we all die, just when?
The question is always when? When will you get your life together? When will you pay attention to what truly matters? What even does truly matter? Is it all just subjective?
Is this a misdiagnosis? Does it come from the technology that plagues us eternally? What of this do I not get?
Who knows, they just like putting stamps onto anyone who acts slightly problematic so they can sedate them with some drugs
It’s basically fordism, but no one talks about it ever, why would we? The only people who seem to care are those who have the condition, a minority population
Regardless, with being drugged, the condition isn’t too bad, just flip floppy in attention span
But who has attention span anyways these days?
I’m good at cleaning and organizing when my space becomes messy. But I do a lot of cleaning and organizing because it happens all the time.
I think my problem is that I don’t become conscious of the fact that things are not in the place I’ve designated for them until the whole space is visibly out of balance. I don’t notice papers and pens and clothes out of place until the whole room is visibly ‘messy’.
I was wondering if there was a way of noticing that my space is getting cluttered before it gets out of hand?
