I know this is super not the group for this, but you’re the most encouraging group that I’m a part of. I don’t have friends. Not even one. There are a lot of extenuating circumstances, but I think it might mostly be my fault. I’m almost 30 and I’m so lonely. Is all of life like this? I don’t know if I can keep doing life like this.
I don't know, maybe it's because of me needing my own space and wanting to be left alone to my own devices without anyone poking their noses into my business and telling me what to do. End of rant.
Anyway, here I am posting on this subreddit once again yearning for human connection after finding myself waking up at 4am and feeling bored...
If anyone wants a chat, whether short or long, I'm down for it. Although, at least send me your ASL first and try to be enthusiastic and not send 1-2 word replies or start the convo with just "Hi" or "Hello." Try to introduce yourself too. You can look through my profile for some facts about me. Bonus points if we share common interests! Even more bonus points if you actually play DFFOO on mobile, lol
Preferably those around 19-25 years old
Today I was just sitting down thinking about the loneliness of existing like I always do every day. And I was like holy shit, everything I’ve gone through the last 6 or 7 years I have confronted all on my own.
Depersonalization, questioning my religion and the subsequent abandoning of my religion. Depression, despair, existential panic attacks, OCD fueled panic attacks which are even worse to me. Realizing my own mortality. Worrying about dying a virgin and never experiencing love. Questioning if love even exists. Wondering if we’re actually in a fucking computer game. Realizing we’re on a speck of dust hurtling through nothingness that we will never understand. I was even alone and disconnected in a fake and bullshit 4 year relationship. Everything, every single thing, all by myself. The list goes on and on.
Even the joys that I have experienced in my life, most of them I experienced by myself and still do. “All I loved I loved alone.”
Part of me even likes the loneliness. It’s predictable. And it’s safe. And I know it really well. Is it supposed to be this way? Am I a failed human experiment because of this? Just gonna go think about it alone...
https://imgur.com/a/xTpjtMI (Sorry for the killer vibes, but I know that sound stupid, but I really don’t know how to smile without looking awkward as fuck) Yes like the title say I feel utterly fricking alone, never had a girlfriend in my entire life and I feel like a loser, have dated this girl on tinder for a month but it went wrong, she told that I’m one the best person she ever met but still wasn’t enough... I’m 6’1” feet tall and my weight is 85kg
I have periods where I feel really depressed and hopeless and meaningless, where I feel like no one understands me and I just want to disappear. But then then there are moments where I think everything is so beautiful and magical and I feel immensely grateful to be alive.
Anyone else have this feeling?
Because I had a dream like that, and it made me realize how single I really am... Does this happen to you too?
Hey fellow redditors, today I just feel so gloomy and lonely. I'm not sure if it's the whole quarantine situation but this feeling sucks. It's like you don't want to do anything at all and just mope around. When you feel like this, what helps you pass this funk and gloom?
That's insane.
So i been single my whole life and never had gf (im 22m)or even sex. So it has lately become frustrating to feel so lonely.
I’ve not had a single friend to talk to for over two years
I have gotten to the point where I actually apologize for accidentally touching someone’s hand at work before while ordering their food because one of my friends tells me that I High Five too much and we shouldn’t be doing that anymore. Ever since then I’ve been afraid of touching someone else’s skin since that day
I’m a junior at Bard College and it’s been the worst, loneliest three years of my life so far. Even though everyone insists that college is where you find your best, lifelong friends, I haven’t been able to find even one good friend. I tried joining clubs and being outgoing but the clubs were super cliquey and I didn’t really click with anyone there. I see everyone else around me with their groups and it makes me so upset and resentful. Everyone I’ve tried to befriend so far has ended up hurting me. How can I find people who will actually like me for who I am?
You want to try to get a gf but ur lonely as fuck with no social skills and ugly and you wanna make friends but u don't want to seem clingy because you never get compliments and 1 actually means the world to you. You want someone outside of ur family u can connect to but still stay in contact with friends online? I'm not sure where this will go
This is something that I have been experiencing a lot as I get older, and my life and understanding of my inner world, richer. I have begun to realize that I will not be able to share the entirety of my inner depths with others and part of that makes me sad, so I'm just wondering if you guys go through that as well and how you deal with it.
You know the hollow that overlooks the cliff by the grave outside the shrine? I managed to piss him off and at one point he threw something at me, and it hit but coated me partially in silver. I couldn't get him to do it again but I do have screenshots.
Anyone ever had that happen and know what exactly he is up to? Is this normal? I've never had them throw anything before. Any ideas?
I could be under layers of blankets but when I get depressed about shit, I feel so cold and was wondering if it’s just me.
I feel this a lot especially during the holidays. Christmas/new year got me fucked up.
This also happened today when I was at work and thought this would be a cool place to spend spring break with someone.
But then realized I don’t have that someone. :(
It 🅱️ like that.
this condition is so debilitating. i am currently friendless because of this. i feel like i lack so many social skills and i feel like my personality didn’t develop to its fullest because i’ve been dealing with this since i was a kid. so lonely for 10 years. i’m afraid even if i got this fixed i’d still be damned to face this loneliness because i just feel like my important development stage was ruined since i couldn’t talk to people and faced bullying. how does one even got over trauma like this? i can’t even fathom telling a shrink this id just feel like they’d laugh or think i’m disgusting secretly. does anyone feel this way too? i genuinely think i suffered severe delay in cognitive and thinking skills too because i stutter and can’t even form sentences right when i’m talking due to the intense anxiety i faced/face when talking to people. i can’t even think straight half the time, i dissociate like crazy and i’m a very angry person. i am very forgetful and have the worst memory. i truly think it’s because of all the stress i’ve faced from this over the years. i can almost never be present with someone in the moment because i’m constantly worrying and stressing leaving me to seem standoffish and rude. everyone thinks i’m rude but i’m really not i seriously love meeting new people and desperately want to make new friends but i just feel like i’m doomed to be this ball of hatred for the rest of my life and it makes it hard to connect with people bc i’m so self absorbed in this issue.
I'm 33 and I reside in Indiana. I was married for about four years before my wife left me a year ago and I've been divorced since March. I don't have much family left as both my parents have since passed.
This marks the first year I've ever had to spend Christmas alone. Sorry for sounding so down. I'm just really depressed today and someone linked this sub to me and I figured I would participate.
I hope all of you are having a great day today though for sure.
Especially when I go back home, I live in the middle of nowhere and it feels so damn lonely when I’m there. Also I sometimes feel isolated and out of place when being surrounded by straight couples while being completely single.
Today, my landlord told me they could finally find a new tenant after the last one passed away 2 years ago in their room.
