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Tl;dr at the bottom
Beforehand (I swear there is a point to this) I just want to say, I think I'm pretty dumb, even more so in the last few months. I constantly forget words as I'm trying to speak, can't retain information for a long time and lost my motivation to learn new things. I generell have low self esteem and trauma, which could play a role in this.
I always got good grades in school without much effort, but only in the subjects I was interested in, in all other subjects I got average grades. Since I started university about two years ago I started to feel really dumb but still got passing, if not good grades. I always chalked that up (hope that's the right expression) to studying well under pressure/memorising the rights things but now I got a very good grade in an assignment that requires scientifically researching and analysing academic sources completely on our own which led me to thinking that maybe I'm not that stupid after all, it's just my bad self image.
Objectively speaking I know I'm not completely stupid, I understand and speak English as a second language (mostly) fluently, know a lot about history and think a lot about political topics. The main reason why I think I'm dumb is because of the reasons stated above (memory issues, generell disinterest in learning new stuff,... ) and because I sound dumber than my friends. Partly because I always forget words in conversations and partly because they can just articulate themsleves better (use "big words").
Does anyone have any resources/advice on learning how to articulate myself better or good memory exercises?
Tl;dr: I think of myself as dumb (even though I often get good grades in Uni) because I am constantly forgetting words, sound dumb and have low self esteem. How can I change that?
