I'm only about halfway through but he keeps saying how the body is supposed to bring you joy and pleasure. The first thing I think of when somebody says joy or pleasure in your body, I immediately feel unsafe and like somebody will harm me again for their own pleasure. It feels sick and twisted to even consider my body should be nothing but in an eternal state of asceticism. I don't know why, but I'm having a really strong reaction to the "body brings you pleasure" part. I feel utterly terrified. And I honestly completely lack the need (to my knowledge) for physical touch by others. It feels disgusting and like I need to hide, change my name and run away. I honestly don't understand the need for pleasurable human touch at all. To me it just seems and feels.. so wrong and like there's almost something evil in it. I'm not sure what to do with this. What would help.
I was listening to Besser van der Kolk on the On Being podcast and he was talking about memory and how memories are often changeable and not necessarily accurate. I have definitely experienced this in my life, and it makes me wonder just how many stories I've made up about my own past and trauma. Combining that idea with the large chunks of time for which I have no memory at all, I wonder just how much I can actually trust myself.
Anyone else wrestling with this? Thoughts?
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***Mindsplain Book Review: "The Body Keeps the Score" - Mindsplain
What is ‘The Body Keeps the Score’ About?
>"The Body Keeps the Score: Mind, Brain, and Body in the Transformation of Trauma transforms our understanding of traumatic stress. Dr. Bessel van der Kolk, a leading expert on trauma, applies modern scientific approaches to reveal just how trauma reshapes both the body and the brain. With over 30 years of research and working with survivors, Van der Kolk teaches us how our bodies confine us to the past despite any effort of the mind to leave it behind. While powerfully arguing that trauma is one of the world’s most urgent public health issues, he explores innovative treatments that offer new pathways to recovery by utilizing the brain’s natural ability to heal."
Key Takeaways from ‘The Body Keeps the Score’
- Trauma is universal and occurs more frequently than we tend to think. One doesn’t have to a veteran to experience it- trauma happens to our family members, friends, and neighbors.
- Trauma not only affects those directly exposed to it but those around them. Healthy relationships become extremely challenging to maintain, ranging from issues such as substance abuse to emotional absence.
- Van der Kolk asserts that the safest way to help traumatized children is to provide them with a safe environment, allowing them to connect with others, learn to self-regulate, and develop autonomy around their own lives.
- Survivors are often triggered, forced to endure the powerful memories of the trauma. Physical responses to these memories are common, and flashbacks cause people to relive the trauma’s mental and physical experience.
- While normal memories dissolve and shift, traumatic memories are vivid, unchanging, and easily triggered. Van der Kolk discusses the effectiveness of EMDR, a common treatment intervention for trauma, in which many of his patients have witnessed incredible results.
- We can learn to regulate our own physiology through movement and breath. Mindfulness, yoga, dance, health
Bessel van der Kolk:
"Traumatized people are not so fortunate and feel separated from their bodies. One particularly good description of depersonalization comes from the German psychoanalyst Paul Schilder, writing in Berlin in 1928: “To the depersonalized individual the world appears strange, peculiar, foreign, dream-like. Objects appear at times strangely diminished in size, at times flat. Sounds appear to come from a distance. . . . The emotions likewise undergo marked alteration. Patients complain that they are capable of experiencing neither pain nor pleasure. . . . They have become strangers to themselves.”
I was fascinated to learn that a group of neuroscientists at the University of Geneva had induced similar out-of-body experiences by delivering mild electric current to a specific spot in the brain, the temporal parietal junction. In one patient this produced a sensation that she was hanging from the ceiling, looking down at her body; in another it induced an eerie feeling that someone was standing behind her.
This research confirms what our patients tell us: that the self can be detached from the body and live a phantom existence on its own. Similarly, Lanius and Frewen, as well as a group of researchers at the University of Groningen in the Netherlands, did brain scans on people who dissociated their terror and found that the fear centers of the brain simply shut down as they recalled the event." The Body Keeps the Score: Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma
Jung :
". In this state there is sometimes a very distinct and impressive sensation or hallucination of levitation, .....During levitation the mood is predominantly euphoric. “‘Buoyant, solemn, heavenly, serene, relaxed, blissful, expectant, exciting’ are the words used to describe it.
One might conjecture that this was simply a psychogenic twilight state in which a split-off part of consciousness still continued to function.....Indeed, it is not easy to explain how such unusually intense psychic processes can take place, and be remembered, in a state of severe collapse, and how the patient could observe actual events in concrete detail with closed eyes......
,.... The accompanying feeling of levitation, alteration of the angle of vision, and extinction of hearing and of coenaesthesis perceptions indicate a shift in the localization of consciousness, a sort of separation from the body, or from the cerebral cortex or cerebrum which is conjectured to be the seat of consciou
... keep reading on reddit ➡Self-help references on social media seem to be more popular these days, especially as many of us seek to move forward from pandemic life to something new and not quite back to normal. Perhaps it’s that more of us are self-conscious as we venture out into public life, and maybe it’s also that the pandemic gave many of us time to think about our mental health.
Today’s audiobook review podcast episodecompares two very popular audiobooks published this year, linked through Goodreads, below:
Both of these audiobooks use professional narrators that made them easy to listen to, but The Body Keeps the Score is more than 16 hours, nearly twice the length of How to Do the Work, and it includes some deeply disturbing stories from trauma survivors, so it might not be appropriate for you to listen to. I have to admit I’m ready to take a break from reading about trauma after finishing both of these books within a week, so keep that in mind if you attempt a deep dive on this topic. If you’re deciding between these two titles, I’d recommend The Body Keeps the Score; I prefer having more information and context to less. That said, consider buying a hard copy if you like to make notes and bookmarks for future reference!
Listen to the #podcast review @ https://podcast.jannastam.com/episode/critique-and-compare-how-to-do-the-work-by-dr-nicole-lepera-vs-the-body-keeps-the-score-by-bessel-a-van-der-kolk
*Apologies for the mispronunciation of Dr. LePera's name in this episode!
Despite all the assertions that 2021 is "dead", I never struggle to find opponents (PS, EU) when I play either coop with mates or matchday. Based on a bunch of posts here that Matchday was not going to be available from this week (incorrect as it turns out), I played 9 games yesterday afternoon and got matched pretty much instantly each time (intermediate league). Longest wait was maybe 10 seconds. Even when they temporarily halted matchday i was getting very quick match-ups in coop.
Until eFootball 22 is fixed, I can't see the PES21 community dying out any time soon.
the figures really are charming.
This book is amazing. Almost every page has something on it that clicks for me. I never underline stuff while reading, but I can't stop with this book.
Like the title. Here's the full quote:
> If a mother cannot meet her baby's impulses and needs, "the baby learns to become the mother's idea of what the baby is." Having to discount its inner sensations and trying to adjust to its caregiver's needs, the child perceives that "something is wrong" with the way it is.
This makes so much sense to me.
I had 2 NParents and have often-crippling self-doubt. Not just emotionally, but physically. I'm very detached from my body, and have no idea what it wants/needs. Of course this comes from the fact that my most trusted caregivers would tell me I was wrong about feeling those things, or even that I was bad for feeling them.
I underlined a lot of this section (which talks about attachment styles & physical dissociation), but this one seemed like the best mention for this sub.
Source: https://www.hpcwire.com/off-the-wire/e4-announces-the-risc-v-based-monte-cimone-cluster/
It contains 12 mini-ITX motherboards and each board has a SiFive Freedom U740 SoC. I think this means they simply use SiFive Unmatched for the base system. It is fine, as their purpose is not winning TOP500 or such.
”Monte Cimone is the first RISC-V ISA cluster specifically designed, built, and validated for co-design activities targeted to enable its use in the HPC ecosystem and having an operational environment as the primary target.”
It is exactly what a development board is designed for, isn't it?
Cineca, the largest supercomputing center in Italy, have already ported several HPC applications and libraries for verification, and will continue the effort with Monte Cimone. According to the article, for instance, an InfiniBand software stack is being ported on the system thanks to the boards' PCIe slots.
This cluster will help future RISC-V supercomputers in EU as well as other countries. Bravo!
anything regarding processing/conceptualizing sexual assault
Take it slow. You can't rush hour healing - trevor hall
