So she didn't get poked with something she should have, and she got poked with something that she shouldn't have.

Did I tell her that chlamydia can truly harm fertility compared to the Covid vaccines? Ask me when I stop laughing at all of this.

I don’t LOVE it, but I really don’t mind it at all. Been going to the clinic for almost two months now. I’ve seen so many people saying they despise it, saying it’s gross etc. I can’t be the only one that kinda likes it? 🍒

So I work night shift at the rehab that I went through 4 months ago and I have been working as a monitor since then. The rehab also has a outpatient methadone clinic that clients in residential treatment can start on. The dosing hours are 12-2 but since I work nights as a monitor for them they put my dose up for me to take at 5am so most days I take it then. But the nurse forgets so often and then I have to leave, sleep for a couple hours, come back at 12 to dose and then go back home. But the worst part is I have a fast metabolism and I want to take my dose at the same time everyday. I start feeling shitty at about 24-27 hours without. I asked the nurse about going to grab my dose on my shift and they just get very rude with me and tell me they can't go over there at night. Their organization is awful. There is no take homes no matter how long you're there for. When I want to see the doctor to increase my dose it has to be approved by the owner who is not a medical doctor or nurse at all. And if I am allowed to see him the guy that runs OP and drops everyone has to come stand in the room with me to make sure I don't ask the doctor for too much or some bullshit. I'm pretty sure it's illegal and its very uncomfortable.

Now that I work for this place they have provided me with housing and I do get paid but a very low wage since it's considered work therapy until we get put on pay roll after working for 6 months. But I am homeless and have no other option. And I am on their methadone program and there are very few clinics in my area for me to switch. It just feels like this place has trapped me to where I can't leave unless I want to be on the streets because if I quit and get a regular paying job then they will kick me out of the transitional house and be on the street and kicked off the methadone program. It's just such a stressful situation and I needed to try to get it out somehow. I'm very stressed out because of it. I do apologize for the very long post.

Ok so I’ve been on methadone for just over six months now. I have perfect attendance. Never miss a day. BUT my counselor is super fucking hard on me because I’m still failing my urines for fentanyl. So yes I’m still using a few times a week. I’m just being honest. I’ve quit the crack and the benzos 100 percent but because I’m still failing for the fentanyl he’s saying I gotta do IOP or they will kick me off!?!??? Anyway so I was complaining to the cool nurse who doses me every morning and she’s like “hey do you want to know a secret?? Over 40% of the clinic only comes 2-3 times a week!!! And are still using! So you’re doing great. Don’t let them bring you down! Most of em just show up when they have too and they’re about to knock they’re dose down!!”....I was blown away by her comment?? I go at the same time everyday and I always wondered why I NEVER saw the same people. Is this a fact with every clinic??? Is my counselor bullying me a bit? I mean if almost half the fucking clinic can’t even show up everyday that’s BAD. At least I make it and I CARE to make it. I’d like to know your thoughts guys.

I’m starting to lose faith. I’m starting to think I cannot be my old “sober” self while on methadone like I was hoping. I got laid off a year ago and I’ve been on the methadone for five months now. Still don’t have a job. Still not going to the gym. I find myself Fucking staying up all night waiting for the clinic. Then I go to the clinic every morning just to go to sleep when I get home!! This is not a good life. And I’m finding out a lot of the peeps at my clinic do the same as me!! Get up. Hit the clinic. Back to bed. Just go home and sleep all day. I dunno. This ain’t livin. At least when I used to kick cold turkey I’d get back to living SOON AFTERWARDS. Can anyone help me out here?(I’m up to 155mg now)

For me, it’s the fact that I can sleep up to 10 hours if I really want to. On the other hand, I’ve had that problem with every opioid. Back when I was on Heroin, I could sleep ten hours. Back when I was on Suboxone. I could also sleep ten hours. And same on Methadone. But I’d say that’s the most disruptive symptom for me. That and the sweating.

What’s yours? It’s okay if it’s more than one

Next week will be my first ever appointment with a methadone clinic. Just looking for some expectations and advice on what to expect. Wondering how I will feel and what is a pretty standard maintenance dose for methadone. I am a 9 year opioid user, 2 year IV heroin user. Been using about 1-2 grams per day for the last year……I’m nervous and excited to finally break this cycle.

Today I went to the clinic to get my dose and on the way out I stopped by my counselors office to check in since she said she'd be free for me to just walk in anytime this week. We were talking for a bit and she ended up telling me about how my urine test had some weird result but it wasn't like a bad result like I was in trouble... just a weird result. So basically she tells me that my drug screen showed a positive for the methadone metabolite, but not the methadone itself. I am puzzled at to how that could happen but I'm guessing it's just the usual finicky urine test bullshit that happens. Also this test is sent to a lab, so it is supposed to be one of the more accurate ones out there.

Does anyone have any ideas why I tested positive for the metabolite but not the methadone itself tho???

Can I get on methadone if I fail the UA for Suboxone?

It’s right above the toilet looking down at you. I’m in PA BTW

And what dose do you use?

I messaged this to my partner and figured that this would be a good place to ask if anyone else can relate, or if I really am in the minority, for context I'm in Scotland, I've been on methadone treatment for about 6/7 months, I have borderline personality disorder and depression and used heroin daily to help deal with my mental illness. thank you

"I just want to tell the drug people that the methadone has been helping with my mental health a lot, it's so frustrating hearing them say "we're not here to help with mental health" while they ask me "has the methadone been helping with cravings?" the cravings are mostly there because it's the only thing I've found that remotely helps with the mental torture I had to go through on a constant basis, the reason the methadone helps with that is precisely because it helps me feel better, and I seriously doubt I'm an edge case in that regard, I think most people who are daily heroin users are such because they're severely mentally ill, bleh

I'm worried if I tell them that it helps with my mental health that they'll take it off me, which would be fucked up considering they would have to take it off every other bloody addict out there too, it feels like they're just denying reality and in doing so making it much harder for patients such at myself to be able to properly communicate how exactly I'm responding to their treatment"

of course I'm well aware that methadone isn't a good long term treatment for mental health, but that's exactly why I want to tell them exactly how it's effecting me, because I worry that when I eventually come off it that my mental health with plummet to how it was previously, it's just so frustrating not being able to talk to them about this without worrying that they'll accuse me of abusing their treatment or something like that

I’m just wondering Bc it seems like no one actually follows the program all the way thru. If so we’re u real sick after you cut your dose down and then stopped? Everyone bitches about going cold turkey on methadone at like 100 mg etc and how sick they were. How about the ppl who done it right and cut down the dose then stopped like the program is supposed to be done?

I am at home with Covid isolation this week and for whatever reason I’m not feeling my doses at all. I’m only on 48 mgs, but I still usually feel my dose at least a little bit after I take it and it definitely holds me all day. I’m getting jitters, temp swings, anxiety, etc. it’s nothing terrible but I have had this happen when I picked up 2 weeks from this same dosing nurse before.

Perhaps this is psychosomatic, but I guess I’m wondering if anyone has ever had their doses not work well when they were sick or if anyone has ever had/heard of a dosing nurse do shady business with the done.

Title basically says it. I'm on 95mg since may 25 2020.

I've noticed within the last week my heart skipping beats quite frequently through the day. Sometimes it keeps me up at night.

When to worry and what steps to take? Thanks for your time

Hello, I’m sure this may be an obvious question but I know you have to use a lockbox for methadone when flying but what about when you are driving across the state? Do you still have to carry your doses in a locked box like you do when flying? I have a feeling it’s yes but a friend on methadone also said that no you did not. I think he’s mistaken. I’m driving a moving truck for a friend the. Flying back the following day so I won’t have any meds to bring back on the flight. I had not wanted to carry an empty lock box on a flight. Thanks for any insight.

And I know alot of women go to the Clinic when they are pregnant and are monitored by their Dr with their Methadone usage (nothing wrong with that) but we all know Chrissy already over medicates like it is and she won't cut back if she happens to be pregnant. That's what pisses me off! I know she will not cut back on any of her addictions "IF" she's pregnant or gets pregnant later on! She doesn't need a child right now she needs a good therapist at a good mental facility, get her life right then if they still want a child, try to have one later on. I guess those sheep better get to scanning those receipts cause that'll be the only way she'll be able to buy diapers and formula, with those stupid fetch gift cards🤦‍♀️🤣 bless it Lord!!

I wondered if the show would ever get into methadone. It finally did with an addict stating “it’s liquid handcuffs and just exchanging one addiction for another”. In a later scene he finally goes to a methadone clinic. The episode ends there. I hope it does tell a positive outcome of methadone used for recovery in future episodes.

It was bad information that kept me from trying methadone. I read articles of how methadone destroyed people’s lives. I could have gotten better years sooner. I’m sure methadone isn’t for everyone but I wish there was good information out there to make a informed decision. And so wish there were more clinics. Almost every week at my clinic I hear the clinic saying sorry we are full. It’s a shame people want help and are turned away.

Full disclosure: I subscribe to Serano's view of AGP, where the term is used as a valid descriptor for a fetish which happens to be common among trans women; not as one of two strict categories of trans women (the other being HSTS), as Blanchard writes. I don't think having AGP invalidates one's trans identity, nor do I think it should preclude someone form ever transitioning.

What if AGP is not just a fetish that introduces the idea of gender transition in one's mind and leads to them wanting to take hormones and stuff, but the only outlet in which to channel one's pre-existing desire to transition that they've been scared to act upon in any other way?

This might be a bit of a weird analogy but in my mind it makes sense--bear with me, please. I used to imagine AGP as a sort of heroin: it developed in me this burning desire (to transition) and I had to keep indulging in it to be satisfied. But the way I'm starting to think about it, the burning desire was always there (like an inherited addiction, I suppose) and AGP is just the methadone that I use to keep the desire at bay. The only real cure would be to transition. Indulging in my AGP staves of the need to transition for a little bit, but ultimately leaves me feeling bad about myself and unsatisfied.

So yeah, that's what I got. I'm not sure if I managed to properly make my point but I can tell you that, for me, this shift in perspective has been very illuminating. Maybe someone else could profit from it.

SAMHSA has officially extended the COVID take-home flexibility for one year while they work towards a permanent solution. Unfortunately, states and individual clinics can make their take-home policies more restrictive, but if your clinic tells you that COVID take-homes have ended, here is the official statement that they've been extended.

https://www.samhsa.gov/newsroom/press-announcements/202111181000

SAMHSA Extends the Methadone Take-Home Flexibility for One Year While Working Toward a Permanent Solution

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Thursday, November 18, 2021

The Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration (SAMHSA) is extending the methadone take-home flexibilities for one year, effective upon the eventual expiration of the COVID-19 Public Health Emergency. This exemption is a continuation of the take-home medication flexibilities that SAMHSA put in place in March 2020 and is in keeping with the newly announced Health and Human Services (HHS) Overdose Prevention Strategy. SAMHSA is also considering mechanisms to make this flexibility permanent.

The March 2020 exemption was issued to protect public health by reducing the risk of COVID-19 infections among patients and health care providers. While the take-home flexibility achieved that goal, it also proved to have other benefits for patients in Opioid Treatment Programs (OTP). SAMHSA allowed Opioid Treatment Programs to dispense 28 days of take-home methadone doses to stable patients for the treatment of opioid use disorder, and up to 14 doses of take-home methadone for less stable patients, who the OTP determines can safely handle this level of take-home medication.

“The methadone take-home flexibility has received widespread support among patients, service providers, and state authorities,” said HHS Assistant Secretary for Mental Health and Substance Use Miriam Delphin-Rittmon, Ph.D., the leader of SAMHSA. “Innovative treatment solutions like this are in line with the Biden-Harris Administration’s efforts to make it easier to connect Americans to effective recovery solutions and support.”

Preliminary studies show that nearly two years after the exemption was first granted, stakeholders report increased engagement with treatment, improved patient satisfaction, and very few incidents of misuse or diversion of medication. The

I'm trying to get a job as a cable technician / installer. I used to work for dish Network in the past and I'm not half bad at it. I've been working doordash and GrubHub for about 4 or 5 years and honestly I'm freaking tired of it. I want a career... And there's a cable company in my area that the company that installs for them I would be a contractor have to drive my own vehicle and they pay $38 an hour. The guy that installed my cable told me he makes $2,000 a week... But they're not hiring right now so I have to look into other people companies until they are. I was told by them to go ahead and apply and as soon as a position opens up they are interested in me because I have experience installing for dish Network from when I was in Ohio. But I want to get a job at another cable company for the time being. I found one that pays about $1,500 a week but I have to drive a company vehicle. Can this cable company deny me employment because I'd be driving one of their company vehicles and I'm prescribed methadone. I take 37 mg per day. I would just be driving a normal work truck or work van... But I did see online that if you were to try to get a CDL or a commercial driver's license taking methadone would bar you from being able to do so... So can they deny me employment when I'm driving a company vehicle because of the fact that I take methadone... And also can the other one deny me an appointment if I'm driving my own vehicle? I wouldn't think that they could but maybe? They're not the ones who pay for my insurance so I wouldn't think so... Please someone let me know.

I am wanting to do some polls and get as many Australian patient's views and perspectives concerning their program.

Some changes are needed in rural drug and alcohol based clinics and I want to know if the problem is nationwide or more an individual issue.

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Good morning (afternoon/evening? idk but it's morning here lol) everyone!

I've been meaning to do this for a while but there has been so many changes and ups and downs, that I've been half putting it off, I just have so much to say.

Firstly, not sure if y'all (🤦‍♀️I'm trying guys, but it still feels very strange, we don't say y'all) read my last post. I believe it was 15 days ago, before I had to euthanise my dog and the same day J and I had our buprenorphine implant. The date was November 8 2021. I lost my dog of almost 19 years the same day as our injection.

We felt stable on 16-20mg strips and had to wait exactly 14 days since our last methadone dose to get the implant. Where we live is out of stock of Sublocade 300mg but we have Buvidal, which doesn't last as long(3-4 weeks) but does come in different strengths you can have weekly jabs.

Buvidal strengths and dosages

So J had the 128mg Buvidal. I was on the borderline of being able to have the 96mg or 128mg. As they said they can top us up with weekly jabs if I find it's not enough, I went with 96mg. It was extremely hard to tell how I felt because I was overwhelmed with grief, but J physically felt great.

J started to go downhill on the Friday evening, 4 days after our monthly jab(but they were going to do our next monthly 3 weeks later instead of 4 just in case, so I guess that technically makes it a 3 weekly jab). The downside to this is that the Drs clinic is closed at the weekend, luckily we still had some benzos, so his weekend was terrible. Meanwhile, I'm trying to hold the fort with our work(we work from home), whilst I'm walking around crying all day after losing my dog.

I began to get a bit goosebumpy and RLS on the Sunday but you not like J. You could physically see that he was fucked up.

We got through the weekend and Monday morning(the last one) came along and drs tell us to come straight in. They gave us a weekly 8mg top up inj, but booked us again for Friday (yesterday) to top us up again so we don't have the weekend problem again.

Now, after the top up on Monday, I was fine. J was not.

I’ve been in methadone treatment for 5 years; of those 5 years I have been @ 100mg for 3 years. I hate working night shift, being tired already, coming home from work to send my kids and wife off, and then not having any energy or motivation to do anything because I am so suppressed by this dang drug, I am ready to be free of it and have tapered to 60mg before, but for whatever reason I went back up eventually. I recently found a doctor who will prescribe suboxone, and I took them Up on it. I had created a plan, which I thought was brilliant. I work and have a wife and 2 amazing children, we are low funded even though we both work our asses off and make decent, we provide a good life for our children, but don’t have any extra. I can’t just up and miss work or up and allow my children to see me writhing in agony.

However , my plan went to crap and I ended in PWD….

I decided I would stop taking my methadone all together for 4 days during my work week, and instead take roxies, however the roxies happened to be laced with fentanyl, so for 4 days I made it through taking 2-3 roxys a day and maybe a Xanax or clonopin. Come Friday night/Saturday morning (I work nights) I had nothing, Saturday I had comfort meds, clonopine and very little sleep. It got so bad that night I had a panic attack, bawling my eyes out, sick and just a wreck. I took Xanax and clonopin to try and sleep it off which worked until about 4am. When I woke up I felt terrible, so I figured iT was time to start the sub. I took 4mg and within an hour I had woken my wife up begging her to make it stop, even though she was powerless. I have never felt pain, sickness or anything else like it. I was scared, I was ceasing up full body, lower body, she was terrified and frantically searching for answers. The only thing I could think of to do was to take enough. Methadone to kick out the naloxone and bupe. I took 100mg of methadone and nothing, took 80 more and found comfort and slept. Woke up feeling like I had been through 7 stages of hell.

I woke up today and dosed @ 20mg of methadone, then another 20 a few hours later . I don’t feel bad but I don’t feel normal Either.

I’m Wondering if I can try to stabilize @ 40 for 3 days, then take comfort medicine like kratom and any clonopin I have left for 3 days before trying again. I think it was the fent roxy that caused it, but I can’t be sure.

Please help me? I am so close? I dunno what to do, I’m out of comfort meds and don’t know where to get more to

Update: went down by 5mg on my methadone and up on my kadian by 50mg today. Thanks for the advice folks I will continue this and see how she goes!✌️

After a while my methadone stopped working well however my QT interval was too high to keep increasing my methadone dose, 100mg morphine isn’t doing shit but I feel like this is way too high a dose, I haven’t plateaued but if I haven’t yet I feel like going higher could just be digging my own grave. Idk what to do.

Edit: this is a methadone clinic, they perscribe suboxone, kadian, and methadone. kadian is morphine XR

Ok so, I am jumping off methadone at basically 3 mg, I'll actually be taking 2 mg for the next 3 days but I won't be stabilized on it yet which is why I say 3.

I sort of panicked and went and got my hands on everything and anything I could to make this doable for me as I am a huge baby when it comes to withdrawal. I can hear that old addict mindset whispering to me in the back of my mind. I've been getting RLS, headaches, runny nose, loose stool, etc. I've been taking 2 Immodium, magnesium, CBD and L-theanine daily.

This is what I have on hand:

25 pregabalin 1 hydrochlorothiazide 1 2mg oxy 5 trazadone 300 g kratom 3 Ativan (maybe getting 10 more) 21 200mg gabapentin 21 100mg gapapentin Clonidine (waiting for script - can't remember how much - maybe a months worth?) 2 bottles of DXM cough syrup CBD oil Magnesium L-theanine Immodium Sleep aid with GABA, valerian and melatonin

Im obviously not going to use all of this, most of it is a safety net for me. Just wondering if anyone can recommend the best way about doing this. What should I take, what should I get rid of? Cycling schedule so I don't get addicted to another substance instead?

I realize a lot of people will likely say I'm not ready to get off it if this is how I'm thinking, but I want to have a baby and I couldn't justify doing it while on MMT. If I'm having cravings afterwards I'll probably get back on the program. I have great support and have tried to be as honest as possible with my partner to keep myself accountable.

Thoughts?

I picture myself being absolutely miserable and never talking or anything after im detoxed.

I was reading a post this morning on a different sub, bitching about how horrible all the mods on Reddit are. I know it’s kind of a joke sometimes, but this whole thread was just people going in on how much they suck, and how they treat everyone like crap and are on power trips, blah blah blah.

r/methadone is really the only sub I frequent. Once in a while I’ll catch some of the popular posts that are up across the whole site, or get lost in some random sub while laying in bed at night. But if it weren’t for the methadone sub I probably wouldn’t even use the site much. So when I saw all these people’s negative comments, I just couldn’t relate. Like not in the slightest.

I just wanted to take a second and say thanks to u/koalajoey and u/schaea …. You both are consistently the voice of reason here. You’re also kind, fair, and helpful in every comment/post I’ve ever seen from you both. It shows through that you think about your words before you post them, knowing that they may effect someone’s life.

Just wanted to say thank you both for working hard to keep this sub a pleasant place for us all to be. You’re appreciated!