i feel like i’m stuck in an endless cycle of abuse… going from one abuser to the next, each getting less abusive but still tormenting me. on top of that i got kicked out of r/bpd because my post was “negative” … i’m so confused as to how a subreddit for bpd is not allowed to have bpd content that isn’t an “on the bright side” type of thing… if i want to say that i hate my bpd thoughts of wanting to ruin my abusers life sometimes why is that something that gets me BANNED ?? i’m just so sad.. everything has been going wrong lately and i thought that was a safe place to vent… i guess not anymore. i feel so broken inside, like even the people with my exact disorder think that i’m too fucked up. i asked what i did and they said “i’m terrified for your partner, seek help” .. the partner that abuses me? you’re scared for THEM? and when i ask what i did i just get “seek help” FOUR TIMES ?? i asked what sub i would be allowed to vent on and they once again said “seek help”. i’ve been in therapy since i was 6 and on meds since i was 13 there’s no more help i can possibly receive. even long term hospital stays have happened. there’s no more fucking help to seek. and me expressing that it was upsetting me just seemed to make them want to say it more…
I loved artful escape, ascent, gears 5, and yes even halo 5.
Folks seemed to like me telling the story of my daughter and why I love this sub so much, so I thought I’d share a Christmas secret with all of you that’s a bit brighter. 😊
My girlfriend and I hit our twenty year anniversary together this year, and take my word for it - I’m the luckiest guy you know and it’s not even close. 🥰 Smart, sweet, beautiful… can’t fathom for the life of me how she fell in love with a schmoe like me. I just thank God for it each and every day. ❤️
Twenty years is a long time, and we’ve discussed marriage - but neither of us has ever had much interest. 🤷♂️ Would be my second and her third, so apparently we kinda suck at it. 🤣🤣🤣 Our love has been one for the ages, and we both just figured why take a chance on messing up something in the recipe of us with a ring. 💁♂️ We always said if it became important to one of us, we’d have an open and honest discussion about it.
WELL FRIENDS - several weeks back my sweetie was dropping some subtle (and a couple not so subtle) hints that it had become important to her. 🤔 Being the shit I am, I let each and every one go by, with very little reaction except a witty one liner occasionally. 😇 The hints eventually died down, with no ill feelings or reaction from my beloved.
But I heard her.
The evening of 12/21, I’ve reserved a horse drawn carriage ride under the Christmas lights in the shopping district, which is a big annual to-do in our city. She is pretty excited about a princess moment like this… which, it makes me sad to say, she had damn few of in her life before we met and certainly not things like this. 🥰 I try to make up for that every chance I get, because I’ve never met a person in my entire life who deserves moments like this more than she does.
What she doesn’t know is I’ll be taking her for a late dinner at our favorite Italian place. Very nice restaurant, been around since the 1920’s. The first time we went, we noticed that on the walls of the booths there are little plaques, kind of like you see on trophies, commemorating all the marriage proposals that have happened there over the years. ❤️
The walls of every booth are COVERED in them. 😵 Pretty cool.
And at about 8:30pm next Tuesday, they’re going to have to find room for one more plaque. 😃💍🙏
Wish me luck y’all, and remember - don’t you tell a SINGLE soul. 😉
So my theory is that your in a never ending cycle at the end of the world in that when your given the choice at the end of the game your choice is irrelevant because you’ll start over regardless back at the asylum so if you choose to ignore the first flame I’d like to imagine since he’s a summon for the fight that solair lights the first flame and “finds his sun” and what happens when you rest at a bonfire all the enemies you’ve fought respawn so my theory is that the first flame is basically a way for the gods/bosses to respawn and that’s potentially why your sent to the asylum for killing the royalty to that universe to to repeat it endlessly with the bosses getting stronger with you every time you go into new game plus.
My brother passed away a year ago and I've been abusing opiates lately. Yes, I'm a scumbag drug user and bla bla bla for those who want to point out, and some of you will probably say I deserved what happened tonight.
An unknown number reached my phone earlier today saying he had "blues". I look for lots of ads on Craigslist for painkillers so although I didn't recognize the number it wasn't out of the norm.
I reached back out with a time and place, and all seemed normal and nothing too suspicious.
I met him around midnight in a heavily Hassidic Jewish area, and as he approached my car he stuck out like a sore thumb. Tall, black guy, with a cloth around his mouth as a mask.
One he got in I asked him if I could see the drugs, and he said "yeah sure, just pull up 2 blocks to get away from all these people". As soon as I pulled to a corner he brandished a weapon pointing at my stomach and held my right hand (I was in the driver seat). He told me he didn't want the car, but I need to give him everything I had inside my CashApp (payment instant xfer).
I nodded to everything he said, and he wanted me to turn off the car. I made up something like the car is automatic and can't turn it off because there are no keys. As I was replying I unfastened my seatbelt and held on to it for the last moment, while also putting my hand closer to the door.
I told him "you can have the car" as I quickly slid out towards the rear of the car. As soon as I got out I pointed at my car and kept saying "this guy's got a gun!" A couple people heard and started running. Thankfully, he got out and started running too.
I got in and drove away.
I'm sitting here minutes after, and I've considered my circumstances. If the situation went different I wouldn't be able to see my newborn due in 2 weeks.
I wouldn't be able to see my wife anymore. My parents would deal with the loss of 2 kids in under 2 years. This has been the wakeup call I needed, definitely not the most pleasant but quite needed. No one knows about my drug usage so I can't tell anyone I know what really went down.
The cake really is a lie.
I mean I get it. I like the brutally hard games like Bloodborne and Dark Souls, and I was struggling there for a while. But once I bit down on something and pushed through it became something very special.
Just wanted to voice my admiration for this game. I hope they sold enough that it gets a sequel.
I haven't finished yet, only just beat the fourth boss, so no spoilers please.
Side note, Girlfriend Reviews claimed her boyfriend beat the game in twenty eight runs it something ridiculous like that!!!??? If that's true then massive props. I'm on sixty six lol.
Is this ‘skill issue’ or is this the norm? The point of this item is when you see it, leave it until after you beat the boss, and then take it so you get potentially helpful shit on the next floor, right...? That’s how I use it, because there’s no way this little shit is surviving any floor unless your damage is like 20+ and you’re killing everything without even thinking.
...sees Ezra kiss Aria at the masquerade ball??? In the middle of the dance floor?????
Is recruiting really that difficult? If I could land two tinder dates in the past month, why can’t I land two job interviews? I’m not even that hot lol and I’m socially awkward. Maybe it’s my resume? Maybe something lurking and hr doesn’t like it? What if I make my resume good as my tinder profile?
