All I know is that it isn't do you believe in love from the lovin spoonful or do you believe in love from huey lewis
> Our philosophers, our poets, our scientists, tell us that the formula of our Universe is love, governed by Venus. She combines the highest spiritual with the lowest material qualities - Love materialised on Earth. She is born in water, from mud, and she bears the lotus. Her mystical mantra is: ‘Love is the law, but Love controlled by Will’...
Let me just start out by saying I'm tripping 480mg of dxm and it's my first time tripping so I figured this would be a cool place to let my thoughts flow
True love is a thing. You don't even ever have to meet the person. I met a girl online and we used to talk all day everyday for months on social media. At first I didn't have feelings for her. She was just a cool person to talk to. We used to be as close as two people who had never met could be. I am a naturally short tempered person so when she would make me mad I would block her and forget about her. She would always find a way to somehow get back into contact with me by any means necessary. She would message me and say she misses me on very obscure social media platforms. I missed talking to her too so I always went back to talking to her. And we would always become super close again. And this cycle happened for until January this year. I realized I really really loved her. Like I had deep feelings for her. I fell madly in love with her. I realized I loved her the whole time. And once I found out I got horribly depressed. I'll sum up January 2019 until today(aka my super hopeless depression time period) heavy daily drinker, heavy weed smoker, drug use, heavy cutting, 1 suicide attempt, countless nights crying, countless run ins with the law. Me and the girl during this time period were on rough terms most of the time. I knew I loved her so I always wanted to talk to her like she always used to want to talk to me. But now the tables turned, she starts to shy away from me because my mental state is so shitty because of all the drugs and alcohol. She would always not reply to me, I always had to reach out to her to talk. And she slowly and slowly and slowly stopped being my friend. And she quit reaching out. And that's where we're at now. We don't talk anymore. And let me tell you guys this girl is the single reason I am still contemplating suicide. And I have a plan to complete suicide, all because of a girl i met online
Some background. Dated a girl in high school and we both fell madly in teenage, hormone fueled love. She was younger so when I left for college we did the break up, get back together, break up again thing for awhile but eventually it ended. However, she ended up going to a university that was only 20 mins away from mine. I had friends there and so we would run in to each other from time to time and there was definitely a tension between us. If I'm honest, I was still in love with her and in hindsight I should have asked her out again.
Fast forward twenty years. A mutual friend of ours from high school moved to the city I now work in. We went out for beers one night and the topic of this girl comes up. Come to find out she's been successful in life but has never married. I've had a couple of long relationships as well, but never married either and if I'm honest it's probably because I never really got over her.
So, here is the question, do I try to get back in touch with her or am I being stupid thinking that she could still have feelings for me the way I do for her. I'm a somewhat emotional person so I love the idea of fairy tales and soul mates, but I'm also not an idiot and realize we are both different people now and have lived very different lives. What would you do, and if you would try to get in touch, what in the hell would you say?
tl;dr: High school sweethearts now in their 40's and both never married. Would you try to reconnect?
After all he'd been through he thought "Fucking nope".
Feeling a little hopeless tonight. I’m not ready by any means but I’m just thinking about the whole dating process and it sounds daunting. The apps, the messaging, meeting up, etc. Not to mention the people that may turn out to be creeps or just interested in a hookup.
Then I see all these posts on reddit about people getting divorced, finding they’re being cheated on, getting broken up out of nowhere. And it’s honestly depressing. You could be so in love with someone and it’s still not a guarantee you’ll be together forever.
Is it even worth it? Is love real?
Or should I walk by again?
