I'm having a really hard time at the moment realizing some horrible truths about my childhood and my parents, and I really need a mom right now. I've been crying basically nonstop for three days now.
I just want someone to hold me and make me feel safe. I don't want to be scared and anxious anymore.
This is a long story, but I'll do my best to keep it short.
I'm 26 and have been dating a woman for nearly two years now. Up until about two weeks ago we had been discussing life, marriage, children, etc. I thought everything was fine, and I did my best to always make her feel loved and supported. However, she has a rather abusive family (growing up in the South to an ultra-conservative atmosphere) so I've been understanding and patient, even talking her out of suicide on more than one occasion. She even started going to a counselor which I was very happy to hear. I loved her. I mean, I still do, but two weeks ago she broke up with me out of the blue for apparently no reason and gave me the "it's not you, it's me" line. Classic, right? I didn't eat for a week. Lost ten pounds because of it. I was destroyed.
Today, I saw a picture of her and her family that her mother posted online...with her ex-fiancé (who cheated on her three years ago) in the photo beside her. Needless to say, I'm a bit devastated, because she claimed she could never go back to him after what he did. But his presence at their Christmas gathering means this has likely gone on longer than I care to admit. I feel betrayed and shattered by a woman I believed I could trust and give everything to, especially considering that she acted like nothing was abnormal up until the very second we broke up.
All this to say to those who are feeling lonely or lost (maybe on the holidays more than usual): it will get better. I'm not feeling it yet, but we must move forward during hopeless times like these. Sure, I love her and will likely always love her to some extent, but she does not define who I am. I define who I am and deserve better.
I want you to know that you are loved. By family. Friends. And if not by either of those, then by me. I know how it feels to be in pain, such pain that it seems like your chest will rip open. You and I will likely never meet, but I understand what it feels like to be in anguish and I love you. So hang in there, and try your best to find happiness in all that you do because only you can find happiness for yourself.
Say a prayer for me, send good karma/vibes, or do whatever your ideologies or practices entail. I will do the same for you. Many blessings, and good luck to you all.
tl;dr: Sadness, though it seems cold and deep, will not last forever. You are loved. Hang in there.
Edit: Wow. I just woke up, and I'm blown away by all of the support. Thank you a
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Hey you! Yes, you! You're AMAZING! I appreciate you being your authentic self. I know things seem hard sometimes, but you can do it! Keep breathing and remember you deserve to be supported, honored, and loved. You are seen. You are recognized. Your experiences are valid. You deserve to feel safe and secure. You are a worthwhile, beautifully complex person that has infinite value just because you exist and are uniquely you. You can do anything!!!
“Everything will be okay in the end. If it's not okay, it's not the end. ” - John Lennon
You're sitting in your million dollar home, with your million dollar lifestyle, singing John Lennon's "Imagine" like you're some god damn saint, reminding everyone to be strong. What do you have to be strong for? The millions you're sitting on but not using to help your country or community during it's most dire hour of need? Your voice sounds like shit, and I see you marketing new products shamelessly, like people actually have the money to buy them right now. Go fuck yourself.
ALSO: Mad props to the celebrities that are actually giving back right now. Bear's girlfriend has partnered with multiple groups to help support women and new born children, and h3h3 is donating 100k of their own money, over 100 days, to help people pay expiring utilities and rent. You wanna be strong? You wanna remind us that it's going to be okay? Then fucking help us.
I've got Apple Music and Itunes Match. I was running low on storage on my iphone and wanted to delete the downloaded version I have of songs. Didn't want the songs themselves gone, just the downloaded versions for offline use.
Went to Setting --> Music --> Deleted Downloaded Music.
Now it's all gone. From my laptop, from my phone, all of my devices. It was a couple thousand songs.
It didn't even warn me or anything either, there was no "Hey bud, you sure you wanna do this, cuz your whole entire music library is gonna get deleted off of everything"
Is there any way to get them back? Some sort of icloud thing? Or does Apple Music keep some sort of index of all of your downloads or songs that you've played? My customer support chat was not very fruitful and I will be so fucking bummed if I just lost years of music because I wanted more phone storage...
Help? Please?
i, like most here, am a high school senior waiting for many college decisions, and the anxiety of the uncertainty of my future really gets to me sometimes. it also doesn’t really help that it seems like every person on here is an amazing student who has 4.5+ GPAs with 30+ ACT, but yet they still are like “ugh can’t wait to get rejected from every college :/“. like i don’t mean to be rude, but you’re going to get in to a good school, and you know it. for the rest of us, the decisions are just so uncertain. it really makes me scared for my future, and a lot of times i just think that i’m hoping for something that isn’t going to happen. i don’t know. anyway, can you please just comment things that will make me stop worrying so much, and that everything will be okay? i know that college really is just only a small part of your life, but it’s all i have been really thinking about my entire senior year. someone please help me stay grounded!
But the son knew that wasn't true, as he already saw the gas chambers.
Biden just announced there would be no shutdowns for the moronic virus. I’m hoping the people who bailed out in fear of another closure to theaters and restaurants will jump back in. Shorts have not covered. Kenny’s not in jail. Money is still on the table with 600,000 apes. I hodl for you and in hopes of giving my daughter financial freedom.
I don’t have any political affiliation so please just know I don’t care what you thing about Oranges or Brandons. Fuck the govt and the horse it rode in on.
❤️ take a deep breath. you are not alone. you are going to be okay. I love you.
Hey you! Yes, you! You're AMAZING! I appreciate you being your authentic self. I know things seem hard sometimes, but you can do it! Keep breathing and remember you deserve to be supported, honored, and loved. You are seen. You are recognized. Your experiences are valid. You deserve to feel safe and secure. You are a worthwhile, beautifully complex person that has infinite value just because you exist and are uniquely you. You can do anything!!!
Hey you! Yes, you! You're AMAZING! I appreciate you being your authentic self. I know things seem hard sometimes, but you can do it! Keep breathing and remember you deserve to be supported, honored, and loved. You are seen. You are recognized. Your experiences are valid. You deserve to feel safe and secure. You are a worthwhile, beautifully complex person that has infinite value just because you exist and are uniquely you. You can do anything!!!
Hey you! Yes, you! You're AMAZING! I appreciate you being your authentic self. I know things seem hard sometimes, but you can do it! Keep breathing and remember you deserve to be supported, honored, and loved. You are seen. You are recognized. Your experiences are valid. You deserve to feel safe and secure. You are a worthwhile, beautifully complex person that has infinite value just because you exist and are uniquely you. You can do anything!!!
